Thursday, January 31, 2008
Labels: I lived a day passedEvery time i look at her face,
my whole body feels entirely weak.
It feels as though im drunk.
My heart melts at the sight of her face.
Every time i hated her,
I gave up on her.
But when i saw her face,
All hate was gone.
It makes me want her more each time.
A fren told me this was called
LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT
or
MABUK CINTA
To me?
Im confused.u noe the song out of reach by some gerl.
i dunno wads her name butt!no matter.
Story:
'A' woke up skool everyday, sleepy, tired & sleepy again.Butt!motivated to come to skool.
Studies are interesting.Learning new things about he human body.was energized to study.
Noon, walking, singing, daydreaming.saw 'Z'.
All of time stopped!just so 'A' could admire 'Z'.
'A' was mesmerized. Heart beat beating so fast. The world was forgotten. They sat opposite of each other.'A' looked at 'Z'.'Z' looked at 'A'. 'A' remembered that smile on the 1st day.
'Z' walked away. the rest of the day, 'A' was 'high'. He was struck by the cupid angel. the arrow was have been really dipped in Strong Love potion. The effect really lasted till the whole day.
'A' was 'traumatized' by it till 'Z's face was super elephant glued in 'A's head.
Nice story ya?ya ya ya! thnx!
so now wanna go sleep!
nites ppl!
Now may not be the time for another commitment.
Time heals wounds.It was a deep cut.It may consume alot of time.
Who knows what awaits in the future.
from winkwink*
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Labels: I lived a day passedjeng jeng jeng!
sitting here all ...yada2..
okay..
from the top yaa
:-)
usual stuff kt umah
do wadeva yada2..
den around 2+ go out..
mit winkwink* coz she was in simei
n i mittin ray oso so mit her la skali.
she study wif her gf at bk so i kpo2 ah.
dunno wad these secondary skool gerls studying.haha!dat was like the past man!
den her gf's mataer wanted to mit her.
he was like..realli2..nvm.nt gd to tok abt ppl.
alaaa..can laa.
he was like the hip hop thingi guy
he was like smile2..shy2 ah i tink.
bt most importantly!
he said my face power!
haha!
means hot laa
so have to laa be friendly he say like dat oredi.
den winkwink* go tamp go jln2.i go mit ray ah.we sat 4 a while b4 goin to werk.
den goin to werk was hoping to see a fren..bt..nvr came.asked y nvr come.gt a scolding instead.so nvm la.I noe wen im nt wanted.=)
ah!just now.i was like in a hype mood so.
hugged ray..n licked his neck..grr!my horns were about to shoot out!haha..jk2!
den finish stupid tiring werk..
went home la..ray n me toked about the fcukers.
stuff like dat.
ppl change..i noe.bt wif members.no need to say such things.
den now..im sleepy so want to sleep.
p.s. im dunno if u realli get me?
about how i feel?
nvm..deres still time.
ohh ya!
forgot one last thing.
i felt HIS love just now.
lately i've been getting information from..dunno where.HIM laa must be.
I dunno how i can noe things sumtims.
like eg.
1)a fren send me a song.fren nvr told me hus it from.bt i suddenly had a thought its from fren's ex.n it was true!
2)i was in the toilet.wantin to noe wad time is it.i suddenly,'feel asleep' n saw a certain time.thinking it was nutin.ignored it.went out of toilet.the time i received was true!
3)I was lying down watching tv.i suddenly wondered wad was y fren doin.i closed my eyes.saw fren was doin sumtin.called fren, n dat was wad fren was doin.
4)I wanted to try this out.i called fren up.ask fren to wait.i closed my eyes.focused.saw fren in black shirt n green shorts.asked if its true.n POOF! it is!
haha..alot more examples.bt tired laa.
now goin to sleep.
so nites!
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Labels: I lived a day passedStraight from dictionary:Jealousy typically refers to the thoughts, feelings, and behaviors that occur when a person believes a valued relationship is being threatened by a rival. This rival may or may not know that he or she is perceived as a threat.
How to cope?
Admit it den try to overcome it?Like mepek! how to overcome if its hard to control?
btw, the reason y im stressing about this is my own.im like so confused about myself.
explanation:
I dun have any more feelings 4 gerls.i feel like i cnnt love gerls..for now i hope.i want to get married u noe..huhu!
n even though i have no 'gatal' for gerls, i do feel jealous..like mepek kn! da jealous one thing, den i like unhapi wif her sumore.like i have no right to be.but i was unhapi.stupid sey
den wanting to be gay is not an option although it was a suggestion given.butt! no! no gay!
i want to like gerls.i want to be straight.
the only unsettled thing is my stupid uncontrollable
feelings of jealous. a fren told me dat shows i still am straight bt nt fully ready 4 a relationship.
so i have to wait 4 dis ordeal to go away.
coz y?
coz i realli2 cannt handle jealousy.
cnnt thn sey!bt nvm laa
next time continue.
now wanna slip!
so nites!
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Labels: I lived a day passedE.M.O.!
E.M.O.!
E.M.O.!
a guy went to meet his fren
he went to the mrt toilet 1st
he wanted to wash his face & make himself look okay
so he styled his hair
styling2
den suddenly a gerl came in
den the gerl did not look at the guy
den the guy noticed that theres a gerl in the toilet
he was like
WTF is she doin in here?!
den the gerl n the guy like looked at each other
den from inside the cubicle
an old lady came out
its the mrt cleaner
n den
the guy realized that he was in the gerls toilet!
he looked at the gerl
he smiled n giggle
he said' opps?paiseh paiseh..hehhe'
he went to the guys toilet quickly
he refreshed his look
wen to mit his fren
den mit his other fren
slack for a while n went home.
stupid!haha!
Monday, January 21, 2008
Labels: I lived a day passedToday I realized that the whole world does not revolves around me
stupid thinking right??
kkk
im now like very bz ah these days
imagine
8 - 5 everyday!
tired seH!!!
den sat & sun werk sumore
tiring seyy seyy seyy
den now
im like
feel like very different from last time
to my kitty-
I love being frens wif u
seriously
i dun wanna lose such a fren like u
erm..
if u wan an explanation
just ask me
for some one concerned-
after we're done
i dun have anymore feelings for gerls got it?
im not in the mood for another relationship
i dun flirt
dey are my frens
n those fcukers!hahaha
FCUK U!!!hhahahaah
okay den
tke cre ya
another nursing day tmrw..
Monday, January 14, 2008
Labels: I lived a day passedHey gerl u now u drive me crazy,
One look puts the rhythm in my head.
haha!
i feel so so so soooooo happy!
n the best part is..
i dun noe y!!
kk from the top
dis morning...
hmm..nutin special..
soo..
SKIP!!
i went to werk in the afternoon
yey!
fun!
long time nvr werk
butt ryoma no more werkin seh
mendak!
oni me n ray la den..
den just now
while making burgers
haha
a fren told me he was bisexual
haha
nt surprised
so asked him if he likes me?
sadly!
NO!!
hahaha
then he asked me..
wad kind of gerl i want to have in the future..
at 1st i did not entertain
haha
den..
i dunno y i did
hahahhahaha
so i said laa
his a malay guy butt talk to him in English hoping he wuld be attracted to me
hahaha
as i was saying
i told him
Me:I want a tudung gerl
Fren:Haha! u like mat2 want tudung2.
Me:hoi!kau asl!haha.aku pe psl ah.kkk..i want her to wear tudung, she must wear it coz of religion & not of fashion.
fren:*blur face*
Me:buek! then i want her to noe wad is rite n wad is wrong.so i will tell her in the beginning ' to think before u act.how would u feel if i were to do it' sumtin like dat ah.I want not much ah butt oni their LOVE, TRUST, CARE, HONESTY, FAITHFULNESS.
Fren:laughed.continue2.
Me:Then i say..about tudung gerls..they..their face alwaes very lawa n like the same. haha!
Fren:hmm.okay wadever.den?
Me:but my prob is ah..........*this abit secret..cannt tell*
Fren:ohh maybe coz u just not ready for another realtionship n maybe coz u like serik wif being attached.so i tink u shud just relax now.
Me:i dunno seh wad im feeling. like confused seh.
till there i forgot ah.haha..den at nite walking home wif ray otw to ab's hse. i like vomited like every 10 steps..so there is like a long trail of my mark to ab's hse la..haha..
den i gt asthma n breathing difficulties.
scary..
den yada3..reach home..yada3..
den now i wanna slip ..nites dem..
To who ever concerned:
I get jealous easily. even at the most unexpected things.so try to understand..hehhe
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Labels: I lived a day passedHey yaw!
im like very bored & sleepy.
S decided to just write in before hitting in.
today was like an emotional day.
e the boys went to esplanade.
just to slack
wan dol beel ful mat alip hilmi faris elmmy n me la..there was a confrontation between us. details not important.
we talked it all out
everyone had their share.
we hugged, cried n laughed after that together.
i guess now the 9 fcukers are bck.
haha!thats good .but still
but the feeling was not the same as last time when we were close.maybe it needs time.so i shall wait for time.
i sometimes do feel unappreciated. i hate seeing them unhappy. i guess thats y i was born with such a huge heart.to store all other feelings except joy.
stupid loser bastard!
but dats me. i was born wif a soft heart.so deal wif it!
n just now.. i..
i poured out my insides out for a awhile..it do feel good as the person now noes..i guess so.
i wonder if time is on my side..
till then
nites yaw!
slippi ahh
Friday, January 11, 2008
Labels: I lived a day passedHey happy people
hope u sty dat way..
i got
about Bk
about frens
about heart issues..
i feel so tired laa..
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Labels: I lived a day passedHey ppl!
sorry long time never update my bloggie.
been busy with skool n werk.
today is like my 3rd day at ITE.
1st day was really damn tiring man
1st dae-i took bus 38 stop at east point. i walked till the campus. alone.
i reached there, was quite lost so meet up with a silat friend. I was told to go to the function hall or something like that. i was to be appointed to a class. i was in nursing class C. so okay. No problem. I sat. I looked at all my classmates. everyone was like blur! like weird people. scary man. i was hoping for some cool people i could be with.i don't want to describe them. haha. there was 7 guys n over 20 or 30 girls. wow! but too bad girls ain't pretty. haha! so i guess since they are my classmates. i try them out.
my teacher, Mdm Norliza. she's okay but she always picks me for my hair. she wants me to cut it. but! nehh! don't think so beb! haha!
We had some ice breaking games. Everyone was like really quiet u know. like shy2. so i wanted to make everyone start to talk so anything teacher ask to do, i do it funnily so they would laugh, from there friendship between them would grow. even though ice breaking games were stupid. enjoyed it still i did.
i finished at 4 n i went to meet Ab Nash & Ray. We lepak2 then around 6, i went home. straight to sleep.
2nd day-I have not bought the uniform yet so i wore home clothing. although a little paiseh, i just kept on going despite the unwanted stares.
We had a talk from the army & police department about come scheme thing.haha! I SLEPT!
soo bored! We went for a break. I was with my new friend Sufiyan. He is the only guy i can consider cool.haha! my blog so i say what i feel ah! then we went for some more talk. i forget ah about wad. but nvm. haha! there was like a CCA fair of some sort. Me n yan go walk around. checking each CCA out. there was a silat CCA! i didn't know. i feel like joining. I didn't stare but just have a long look at their booth. while thinking. A fat guy went up to me & ask.
if i wanted to join.i asked back.
'korang silat ane punye?' wah! like gangster!He said they learn under some Alla' udin guy. haha! no matter. i did thought of it for some time. i didn't join at 1st. but I'm considering about joining in. haha! i want to test them out. ahah!
after skool went to meet saiful n ray. we lepak for awhile. then we went home.
after around 8 plus. went out to meet up with ful n gang. we eat for awhile then set off to simei. meeting Ryoma. His my team leader in burger king. now his going to resign already. soo sad! no more doing gay stuff to him.
about to go home after eating pizza bought by Ryoma. it was raining like cats n dogs racing to reach earth! damn! so got an umbrella from BK n walked home with ray till his home. along the way, i was about to fall alot of times. then ray pulled me.i fell ah! knee hit the floor hard! painful!! then i complained to a friend.haha.
then as the bus approaches the bus stop, i hugged ray. haha! not gay btw. we wished each other. n went home from there.
Done! that was a summary of my ITE beginning days.so i think i will update next time. I'm feeling very sleepy now.
so nites to you all!
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