IOfferTheeThisSilentSacrifice

Hiatus.

2009-09-14T22:57:00.003+08:00

hello everyone. this is diyana speaking. who else kan? haha.
currently he's busy with everything and anything.
haha. thats why he doesn't have time to update. ya, i know. rofl.
anyways, he'll be back soon.
his birthday is coming and yeah you know.
he wants this and that. pala pun pening. haha!
no la. jokes je ok bf.
anyways, i think i'm going off soon.
nyhahahaha. i love you, bf.
ps; i think we should have a shared blog like kinah and fie. HAHA!
since you are so " busy " (((:
then we can name the blog, " becauseimdiyana " HAHA.
sorry kinah. ok. done.

goodnight babies.

:)

2009-08-19T22:32:00.000+08:00

3 days passed. still no sign of calling2ness. ermm. maybe they're just busy.

Love, Hatred and War

2009-08-17T22:56:00.000+08:00

Hello

Sometimes when you care so much for that someone, you tend to go overboard caring for him/her. and that causes conflict. it happened to me twice. and i'll never let it happen again. so to save them from me, i guess i have to stay away. cause maybe if im not around, nothing can happen. maybe you're okay by now, but actually im still not. not cause im not satisfied but i cant believe what i did to you. after being with you for 6 yrs+ and considering you more dear to me than my own bloods, i say things unknowingly and unintentionally insulting you and your family. im sorry. so i guess to save the others from my evil mouth i've to stay away for now.

Theres going to be war coming. The ending is near. I can't help even if i want to. I just wish I would get IT.

Good times

2009-08-07T00:33:00.004+08:00

Hello

Its 15 cm. :)

so yeah had sch shits in the morning. well thats not important. went lepaks with the boys-ful alip wan mat ray. haha and btw i passed my prac 1. next is prac 2 hoping 'sifu(guru) mat wuld teach me' then yeah. Can't wait for my Birthday. Then can go in front of police post and.. yeah.. whatever. then i cut alip's hair. lawa gile nak mampuuusi! so so HERE I HEREBY CLAIM MYSELF THAT I CUT ALIFF's HAIR AND THAT ALL THE COMPLIMENTS SHOULD BE DIRECTED TO ME. Thank you. then yela tu je. oh and next monday is picnic day. boys, pay up or else tk jadi. and in case tak jadi, we all go shishishasha la then. we become dragon boys, and if can, guys night out la. :) hehehe. we're gonna have fun booyyyss!

okay so thats it. so gtg now, need to meet gf tmrw. haish. leceh. die start kol 8 kite kene anta. hak puik. hahah. lek ah you. chill ah babe. leh bbual pe. tak puas sini ah, dekat. k whatever.
so so soo long and good night.

to you: I need to let you know this. read this well. I don't like tight places. I don't like the feeling of being in a tight place. remember this. okay. muah

Dream

2009-07-26T02:22:00.000+08:00

Hello

yeah this is a random post tu pasal the colour also random. dont know why cannot change colour and font.
but nevermind.

So yeah went to buy B.e.g stuff jsut now at Tm. its Isetan discounts there. so yeah.
then went to pakcik's house intending to meet nenek but nenek was at another pakcik's house. :(
tkpela. then had some talk talk. felt enlightment kejap.

so the title is Dream right. so heres my dream.
My dream is to be like the legendary avatar. why? cause it wuld be soooo cool to be like him.
haiss i really wish for that and only that.like imagine, while walking along the sidewalk, saw some dirt on the ground, and i airbend to clean it up. or let's say got some matrep find trouble, i purposely cough out fire, like dragon breath gitu ah. TAK KE COOL GITU!!!! but the best part is, imagine theres a comet going straight to earth, then i try and try to stop it. then when i was about to fail, about to die trying to stop the comet, my eyes glow bright and crush the comet into pieces then drop down to earth like in superman return the movie. then everyone like 'awww he saved us, but he sacrificed his life.' then everyone cry. thought i die then bury me. then on the day of my burial, my body is missing. and they never heard of me again. but a few mths later, there have been sightings about a mysterious boy saving people from burning buildings or saving people from a sinking ship by creating a water tornado. wooooo best seyy gitu.

okay laa. haha nak chat with ful n beel. oh yeah beel busy in the toilet as usual. pfft. you know i know. he's becoming like me. becoming horny, sick, perverted and any other erotic words like me. i really am a sick fcuker. hahah
okay muah.

sakinah's birthday

2009-07-23T00:34:00.002+08:00

Hello

So today's sakinah's birthday. and, i forgot. haha. wah seyy. member gini. baik pe. actually i remembered the night before. then da plan ah want to msg her. so like was tired then Zzzzzzz. yeah. then just now in the morning, in the mlt, when i heard someone shouted happy birthday at her. i was like 'ohhhh shit!!! i forgot!!' then panicked kejap. then kinah like say ah'eh kate je nk msg smlm mlm' then i'dah..kau tak dpt? nth la.' in my heart i was sooo paisey. then to cover up, i say ah'alaaa its the thought that counts kan? so yeah. here's my thought' hahah. stupid but good. so yeah. during break yan asked me to accompany him to withdraw money while kinah and nisha was taking care of our barang2. then in the lift he said 'eh lame, kawan2 die belikan die gift abeh kite bestfriend die tak beli pape. macam ape gitu' then i ' ah2 sey. aku lupe sia.' then i xplained my situation that was somehow familiar to his. cause he also forgot. pfft! hahah. then we faster2 go co-op shop buy sweets and a card. then we went to 6th floor. yan was hiding while i try to ask the girls to leave. then they went down. me and yan faster2 wrote in the card and wrapped it nicely in the plastic bag. haha. then we waited for them to come up. then we go puff puff then we come back and kinah was like ' eh sweet ah korang. awww. etc etc' hahah. she almost cried. hahah! sweet kepe aku, opps sorry. and yan. ahaha. then yeah go home with Nds.

Meet up with wan, beel, ful at Sc. haha. funny guys. i just came and saiful said 'eh lame mcm da hensom ah kau' hahah. i like! cause i did the twillight hairstyle only abit differ. hahah. i hensom? i know. hahah. then yeah. we talked, joked, laughed, etc etc. i love you guys man. oh yeah, me, wan and ful cut beel's hair. well actually it was only me and wan la. ful only like sibok2. haha. as always la kan. btw ful pe palat da grow alek la siol! hahaha. oh yeah so now beel's hair is more nicer, neater and shorter. all thanks to me and wan. hooray! and yeah, some bald spots done by saiful. pfft! then yeah going home, we saw a dead cat. :( there was still fresh blood coming out of its mouth. it was soo sad. it cant be a cat fight cause there was no scratch marks so must be done by some cruel evil unforgivable beast called humans. fcuking idiots. geram sia. then saiful asked his kakak what to do then she siad to jsut bury it, then i went to take a plastic and carry it. it was soo hard sia. damn scary and sad still. the eyes were still open. i wanted to cry. sob sob. then yeah forced the cat off the ground cause the blood under the ear was dried up and sticked the ear to the ground. hais. then we placed it under a tree. i pray that the one who did this to be punished so severely. tkpe2. kt dunia kau uat binatang gini. nnti kt akhirat, pade hari pembalasan, Tuhan kene kan kau alek. Kucing tu akan uat alek kat kau gitu. Tuhan Maha Adil. kau uat salah kat orang, kau akan kene alek. Tuhan Maha besar Maha Kuasa.

haiss. sad story. so yeah chatted with the boys just now. talking about the pit. and beel pestering me about making a facebook account. so yeah nnti la leh uat. k so yeah. done. so wait for another a thousand yrs for my next update. k with love. taslim

Heya

2009-06-21T01:41:00.004+08:00

Hello taslim not diyy here. Okay whatever. So yeah, next week going to ward 9c. Thats gonna be my last attachment then a week of holiday then school. Damn tired i say. then 6 more months of ITE then Im done. Going for Ns? oh no no.I will not, will never go Ns. Maybe, i can pretend to have some critical illness, not that im lying la, i do have. But it aint so critical, it still counts though. Or maybe, i pretent to be mentally disturbed. yeah! butt, one prob. If i get admitted to IMH, and once Im 'well', how will I find a job? damn. Looks like i've got no choice. I've gotto migrate. yeah, thats it. I'll migrate to Aussie and stay with my unlce there. yeah, okay good plan. So, i have to start saving now.

So now, im chtting with saiful. talking talking. funny hensom looking guy. ohh man, i wish i was the most good looking guy on earth. sorry dear, not that its anything la. just for fun. not like i want to be good looking to attract other girls. erm okay maybe its true, but i still love you. hehehe. i highlight lagik ah. okay tomorrow Im going to some wedding of my neighbour's at the voideck with my mum.

okay now, gf wants to read my post. Told her she wuld get angry. huhu. i like making her angry.' haiyaa. haha.
update pasal i.
LOL.' See, tk tau malu. okay la. can la. erm, your my gf, and erm..ur my gf. and lastly ur my gf and i love you. even if i want to be the most good looking guy in the world to attract all the girls and guys. :) okay make sure janagan marah. If you did, then your not getting something. Something tu ape? well, it maybe T_o_a_i or M_c_r_n_ and C_e_s_. figure it out okay. okay im done for now. so yeah.

Hiatus,

2009-06-11T22:28:00.002+08:00

Hello people! Diyy here again. Updating for this bf of mine. Haha. On behalf of him, i'm sorry that he hasn't been updating that much. Like what kinah say, blog mati, pegi tanam. Haha.
So, i shocked this blog and it came back to life again.
Ok diyy. Cukup. Haha.

Well, lets see what happen in his life so far:

Its been 1year1month together thus far, still surviving. Hopefully, it'll last. Haha.
He's had fun at KK attachment. Taking care of toddlers and bathing babies.
He's busy with his ward routines then i'm neglected most of the time. Haha. JOKING :D
He now has a new bff, yan. Haha. They share everything together. OhEmmGee.
He's still the sweet, adorable, handsome darling since the first time i met him.
He's trying to control his temper. Ily :D
He wants to see me despite me having flu ayam. Haha. I repeat, not bird flu. If bird flu means its flu burung. So, if you guys are clever, you'll know what i meant by flu ayam.
He's being the sweetest thing to take care of me. Eventhough its via text or call.
10 days takle jumpe, mati seh :(
I bet he's already asleep now. Hahahaha.

You, once you get to use the com, watch twilight movie ok ok ok? Hehe.
Gotta go. Gonna sleep now.
Lupchew forever. Of course you know that (:

Taste.

2009-05-02T00:46:00.002+08:00

Hello people. Diyy here to update for lame. Haha. As usual, he's kinda " busy ". Heh heh. Anyways, things for him this past few weeks are kinda busy. I mean betul nye busy. Attachment has started and his first two weeks was in IMH. Yes. Basically said his experience there was alright. His friend, yan, almost got hit by a chair when a patient threw it at him. Uh huh. Other then that, it was alright. He managed to see haizad imran. Ya. That actor from 2x5 dol. Uh huh. And he was happy to see him. Haha. My god -___-"

Things happened between me and him. But we managed to settle it.
We always do :)

Then after IMH posting it was back in the ward. So far, he hasn't complained to me about anything so i guess it was quite alright for him too. Skills wise he's catching up? Uh huh. He had a follow up appointment at CGH on thursday. He saw hairil, shida and some girl there too. Haha. Anyways, next week. We don't know if we're going back to school or whatttt. Cause the WHO has raised the bar up to 5 and the colour code is already orange. So yeah. Lets pray that its just a passing flu and it won't affect us singaporeans.

365 days is coming pretty shortly.
Thats it. He'll make edits if he isn't malas. Haha. Tags regarding links will be up soon.
:)

Goodbye/}

Ps; Babylove. I sayang you. *Giggles*

Hello!

2009-04-03T02:26:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone. Diyy here updating for lame. Haha. He very MAL you see. So yeah. He ask me to update for him. I update la. -.-"
So anyways, there has been alot going on in his life. Yes. Alot i tell you. Haha. Lets start.

Monday

He went with his mum to CGH to check in at the endoscopy center. Yeah. Then the doctor come insert IV plug. He say kan, the doctor kurang ajar. Poke first time then wriggle the needle inside his skin then very pain. Then take out poke second time. When the first time the doctor poke, he started to sweat cold sweat. His face felt numb. His muscle co-ordination got interrupted. Then his ears like somehow pekak sekejap. So yeah. Then soon, me and mat came up to see him. Then blahblahblah. It was time for him to go into the procedure room. Then yeah. Got pretty nurse all surround him. He think i don't know. Padehal he was the one who tell me. Hahaha. Then the doctor started to spray something pait inside his mouth. Then on the neck. Then suddenly he fell asleep but actually tak. Act je. He can hear the doctor say " Wah so fast knock out ah? " When he heard that he opened his eyes and the doctor laughed. Mepek nye. Hahaha. Ok da.

Then inside the room, he half awake half asleep. He saw the scope. How long it was. Haha. Then don't know what happen. When he tersadar back, he's already back at the bed area. Then mul, wan, ful, beel and me came. Then he got discharged. Forced him to go home. He got home. He took medications. He slept. He woke up. He called me. He went online to chat with fyan. He called me again. He met me. We bought yoghurt. Sat at the highest floor at my building then off back home.

Tuesday

Stay at home. 6 plus go masjid. Met me then bought food from mac's. Eat under void deck then chill for awhile then back home.

Wednesday

Stay at home. 8 plus went out to meet the boys. Went to somewhere around mat's area. Then went to tmart macs. Talk here talk there. Smoke here smoke there. Otw home with mat, i called him. He scared to call me cause he know i will bising. Haha. So clever. Reached home, called me, apologised then awww, my heart melt. Ok shut up.

Thursday

Met me at under 403. Followed me to bugis. To raffles hospital to collect my results. Made friends with this pakcik who lost his bag. Haha. Went to bugis BK to eat. Then off to topshop cause i wanted to find something but it wasn't there. Then headed outside BHG to smoke. I helped him gulung but again, TAK PASS. Arghh! So anyways, he smoke. I smelled. I die faster XD Ok merepek. Headed off to bedok to buy for mat food. Then took 28 to mat's place. Pit stop sekejap. Heh heh heh. Mat greeted us with boxers and specs and towel on his head. Haha. Member da lapar. Kesian. Belum mandi pasal nak tunggu makan and tunggu kitorang tiba. Lol. So, he went to read the motor thing. Then smoke. Then we left off. Headed to my block to lepak for awhile then go home.

Friday, today

I don't know if he going out anot. So yeah. Update later la ye. Haha.

On a brighter note.
To wonderful bf.
Jangan MAL sangat. Ok? Da jejak bugis ngan i. Next stop, boon lay tau. Haha. Jangan main-main. Haha. Ok. I love you. I tau you tau. Yay!
Mwah.

Breaking free

2009-03-26T06:44:00.002+08:00

0644hrs

hello. its after suboh now. not asleep yet. yea. shit.

so yeah. just to update abit only.
yesterday lepak-ed with wawan, afdally, fullat, and Mat&Gf. Ful told me there's alot of people ah coming down. wah sey. only 6 people only. alipi hilang rayray hilang. wah sey.
kla whatever la. oh yea. conferm shit now im in the process of perfecting my gulung skills. learned by myself eh. not taught by anyone. erm okay maybe a little help by wan, but thats all. so it still counts me as maut jgk ah. woohoo!

then went home with mat then otf with gf then Zzzzzz. hope gf's okay.

okay now emo shit part. for the faint hearted, viewer discretion is advised. thank you

these past few days, stress gile bab siol. da gdh ngn bapak aku. mak aku lak sakit. gdh ngn gf lgk. alaaamak. aku tk salah, tapi disalahkan. wah sey. kene panggil bodoh, bingai(whatever that is), etc. why? coz i cared for my grandmother more than my brother. geram sia. mak aku tau aku dpt sakit ni psl aku stress, beh simpan prasaan, lgk dpt stress, habis ah. KO ahh. bleeding ah sampai badan jadi merah penuh ngn darah. kadang2 eh, aku rase mcm nk dpt sakit yang tk leh baik ah mcm cancer ke pape ah aslkan aku mati. ah aru ah tau uat aku gini. bukan aku benci bapak aku ah, just mcm, tk tau la. tkpe la. aku slalu eh disalahkan walaupun tak salah. ahh. ape seyy. beh tkpela. since bapak aku so tahan aje ah.
and gf lak. smlm mlm, tadi agi la kirekn, ape yang u kate same ngn ape dulu dikatakan. i da warn u dulu, jgn nk suro i pilih. jgn tanye sape lagk penting. dengar aje la cakap i. i sayang u. i sayang dorang jgk. kawan mcm drg susah nak carik. pompan mcm u pon susah nak carik. jadi please la you, jangan uat i gitu lagk ah. and kalau u nak tanye i soalan, jangan tanye mcm u tuduh i gitu. tanye betol betol. i tau u care tapi just jangan overdo it ah sometimes.
and fcukers, i love you all. macam ape beel kate, kawan dari kecik(padehal sec 1 ah, tapi okay la. gasak die ah) so we grow up together, mesti rumah mcm blk beel. sume facing each other. stress ah pasal drg jagk. stress psl
ful-mcm ne nk dpt palat mcm die. mat- mcm ne nk dpt gigi mcm die. wan-nk dpt rambut cool die. nas-dpt DUA palat ke leher(cool sia). ray- dpt kt hidung. beel-3D!!(favoured) alip-the nose rolling thing. mul-curry pap die
and also nk dpt my ite friend nye good looking ness(yan, chey chey. malam dapat pe) haha

see alot of things to think about sia. habis ah stress.

so yeah. thats about all ah. aiyo. next monday going for my scope. seram ah kalau dapat tau bad news. hais

Midnight oil

2009-03-24T01:32:00.002+08:00

0134hrs

hello. so yea. im on the phone now, while updating this, and finding psp games, also music-cing. yeah okay so so yea. holidays already, but it'll all pass so fast. and next Monday's the day! argh!! ork ork ork!

so errm yea, hope nothing serious would turn out. no cancer whatever shit. k oh yea, ter-remembered something funny that happened in the ward. haha. accidently(as if), i called out to a bald man, botak! haha. damn funny sia. lucky never kene whack ah me! scary u know. the guy big size, big muscles, scary face and his bald! its shiny too! dont say im a scardy cat cause if u were me, you guys wuld have pee-ed in your pants man. tsk! brrrr!

ohh yea erm i hope to go out somewhere soon, but dont know where, as long as go out. like soo dull at home. all i can do is psp, sleep, psp, sleep again. ohh eat, drink all etc la. oh nevermind.

okay got to gotos now. soo long and goodnight. jeng!

Last Day

2009-03-15T22:36:00.002+08:00

2237hrs

so hello. yeah. today's gonna be my last day before attachment starts. although its for only a week, but still.. Aiyoo. and its gonna be an A class ward so yea. i hope it'll be a little relaxing. with air-con, private rooms, private toilets, private patients, etc. and tomorrow I'm morning shift, Im with Yan. like Yey! haha. so patients there, just get ready la be rumble!! woooo!

yeah okay. now im doing nothing. just updating bloggy, and thinking about stuffs. about 30 march, about me, about taslim, about I, about you, about kawang2, about attachment, about you again, about fcuking some guys, about you again, about... ermm. i think that's about it. yeah. only 18 and got a lot to think about.

i would like to tell the whole world again that i love my friends so much. yeah.
and also, I'm the coolest person in the world. why? cause I'm just am. :) thank you thank you thank you, you're far too kind. jeng jeng jeng jeng!!

so yeah, so till next time humans. Gotto fly! supa dupa fly(culik dali yan ah)

9 fcukers pit

2009-03-14T20:18:00.003+08:00

2030hrs

hello. woo! finally a gathering of the 9 + 4 buggers. but at least we all did meet up. macam happy sungguh.
so yesterday around 6 me, Gf, ray, wan & ful met up at my void deck. so all together is 5 people la so we cannot take cab. so me, Gf & ray took a cab 1st while wan & ful took the bus. i was carrying a biggy tray of fried rice and ray was carrying 5 kilos of chicken. so imagine how much suffering it is to carry and walk with it till we reach our pit. lucky the pit was near, if not ah. dont know la. just lucky only la. k dah
then we reached then, there was alip, beel, faris, mul & maz. wah! before that nabeel call me, he said everyone was hungry and grumpy. i thought there's alot of people. padehal itu jek. grrr then okay they all digged in the rice. alot of compliments by them. biase jgk. Katy yang masak pe.
Soon, the rest of the gang shows up. there's elmmy & sammy, helmi, nashdal, fehrin, mat & gf. if i miss your name, too bad eh. bad memory ah. abeh asl ? kau nk uat ape? kk dah dah.
then they all munch2 on the rice. the barbequing begins. there's chicken, hotdog, crabstick and beel. opps! yeah true. we bbq nabeel as well. he like really noisy ah. sadly he thought that since the charcoal turns white after being burnt, he didn't. sorry beel. hopes & dreams crashed, crushed, destroyed, spit at. :(
so then as time passes dalby man pon sampai, then me ful dal ray went to the pool area.
and wooo. dont judge me ah people. you think i kental at pool rite, well. you're all wrong!! im the best there is, the best there was and the best there ever will be, pool player. Wooooo for taslim! *woooooook*
1st game between me and ful. i won. as usual la kan.
2nd game is between me & ray VS ful & dal. we won again!
3rd game is the best match ever. Me & ful VS dal & ray. We beat them with our eyes closed, heads turned away, ears stuffed with tissue, mouth taped, hands tied behind my back, legs tied and lastly holding the pool stick thingy with no hands. WE BEAT THEM!! WOOOO!!! HOORAY FOR THE KENTALS!!
so next, the rest of them started to drink. the only ones not drinking are me, ray, alip and mat. and lucky they're not so irritating. if not kene pump ah drg. eh beel eh. pump eh. k then me & Gf slept, although tk tenang, but will do. at least i have my rest. so then woke up, cleaned myself, ate at mac then head for home. k done
yes ahh. k now i want to go snort. k muah

i really enjoyed my time with you guys. i love you all so much. like Beel said(when he was drunk),' kite kawan dari kecik, and kalau boleh sampai tue nak mati. aku sayang korang sume eh. pape ade hal picit je, aku leh mati untuk korang. satu snort sume snort eh. Jim Beam eh. Snort Snort Snort. King Robert*salah spelling paiseh ah*' this is what mostly beel said. some maybe i add ah. but the main thing is, i really love you guys. yes, im the horniest freak but still i'll always be like this forever. If for a min im not horny, it isn't me. k dah. so last, love you fcukers again. love you helmi and faris and elmmy. ermm fehrin..okay la. member jugak la. Bal? err. wua tk kenal sgt ah, so aku panggil kau kawan aje la eh. so k dah. oh love you to dear.

Gf posts :)

2009-03-12T21:26:00.002+08:00

Hello. Haha. Diyana here posting for taslim.
Yes, i have nothing better to do. So post for him.
I hope he likes the new skin. It took me 1 hour to do this codes. Arghh! Haha.
Anyways, what happen today was..

We went to CGH cause he had appointment there. Then, when he got to know something, he quite sad and scared. But! I counselled him. Ensure that things are going to be fine. Yeah. So, after that, we went to east point BK to makan la. Haha.
Then he spotted nashrun's mum. So he go and salam her.
Then ya. After that thought want to go to serangoon home.
We took the train down to bedok already know. Then, plans changed.
Headed back to tampines and lepak at my tampines home.
Hahaha.

Around 4 he went home. Then he say only want to sleep in the end never sleep. Haha. He called me to help him find game and change blogskin. So, as a helpful gf, i help la. Haha.
Then yadayadayada.
Now, he outside go meet the boys lepak -____-"
Only know how to lepak only know. Grrr.
Ok la. Thats about it. Haha.
He'll blog soon when he feels not lazy :)

Goodbye/}

To you: Luffyou :) Nomore nonsense ok. Hahaha.

lepak again

2009-03-08T00:08:00.003+08:00

12.09am

Okay so just got home from lepaking with the boys just now. initial plan was to study at mat's place. butt! beel wan ful came. so yea. they psycho-ed me to lepak. aiyoo. exam stress hilang jap while with them. so we went from mat's place to cs. they makanmakan then we went to.. ermm ohh yeah. to beel's blk. lepak-ed there. talk talk yada yada.(yada yada word aku eh beel, jgn nk curik. bloody haka noodle!) then we discussed about the oncoming pit on the 13 on march. at pasir ris. details pls call beel or any of the fcukers. those who wants lobs inform beel latest by wed eh. and also those who wants to bukak botol, inform beel too. anything je la tell nabeel la. yeah. oh soo i guess thts all. now want to outs.
ohh! if any of u guys knows where to get a reliable source for psp games tell ehh. i dont want to hear pspiso or utorrent la. k thnks soo nighty nights. muah

ups and downs

2009-02-21T22:34:00.003+08:00

Malams people.
10.36pm

okay sorry tak update.
wait! ni blog aku asl nk sorry. k dah.

so yea i got diary thats why ah i write there for awhile. if tk malas maybe i transfer. k wait again. i lazy ah. so yea, i wont transfer. ok ok, just now had bio class. 9 - 12. done with bio. will be studying later or maybe tomorrow. want to aim an A. want to get good GPA. hope to get into poly or Paramedics. yey! okay dah. ohh ohh, if can want to cabot from NS ah. like leceh nyeeee. okay shh

okay now im watching Lord of the rings. yes i know, its repeated, butt! just to pass the time la kan. will be eating something later, that also if got anything to eat la. ohh ohh yea, me and dalbiman da okay. yey! will be wanting to catch up on things with him. k dah

ohh i lost my nursing fren. his got to quit. damn stupid payaus. stupid rmbt aku die suke tangkap kt attachment. pfft! and also, a friend of mine faced a v emotional phase. hope he got his head up high again. if your reading this, you should know, although i've known you for a yr plus, you'll always have me to talk. :)

yeah okay la. now i want to do something. not quite sure what that is but. yea. just something.so selamat malam.
assalamualaikum

to you: sorry if im too demanding, like what i said just now. i knw i kept asking about it. i just really want it soo much. i hope u dont think of me negatively. just dont give me hope next time. hais. by ur reply just now, im sorry but u dont really knw what i meant. but its okay. love you still.

Good day

2009-02-17T23:26:00.003+08:00

Hoit!
selamat malam.
11. 27
haven't shower from just now. after sending gf home la.
just chtted with burnt. about.. the pit on 13-14 mar. invited are 9fcukers and rff. sorang 20.
bawak mataer additional 5. so yeah. all meet up on 1st mar i think. pay money that day. and those who want lobs, order to burnt k.

so today, bio in the morning. escaped from getting my bio book getting checked. woo! k dah. after that actually got break from 10 to 1. but alaaamak, ni labamba nk amek lesson lak. so pca for an hr. then break lagiks. den yada yada shit shit. got to know there's this guy from yr1 want to knl2 with gf. wahh siow wei. potong lu aru tau ah beb!!! then err ape ehh.
then kla try la knl2. so finish sch oredi then send gf home. ohh in the bus, the same CD guy from yst. he yst also take same bus with us. he always like cui cui gf then like i like look la at him. then when i go down the bus, i walked a few steps away, i turned and i stick out my tongue. hahah! TU LA SAPE SURO TGK2 MATAER AKU. kan da kene. that was yst la.
then just now, he still want to tgk2 my gf. then when time want to go down the bus right, i said right next to him, ' mate tu jage2. potong ah nnti'

then da alight the bus, then lepak with her. then something unexpected happened. those mats mcm mntk kene hang kt atas atas ah. geram sia. stupid matreps. krg klu uat hal ngn mataer aku, aku make sure krg inside out, outside in. pfft!

k so aru habis cht ngn beel elmmy pinky ris n onggy. merepek frens i got.
bio me got 39 tau btw. phase test pass. PCA and geron haven get so waiting la.

so i guess sampai di sini la.
now i want to lala land. so assalamualikum.

even if the morrow is barren of promises,
nothing shall forestall my return.

NO

2009-02-10T23:44:00.002+08:00

Okay its 11:47 pm now.
Let's go

My aim was to save money. want to buy something la. but eh, that something kan, like mahal ah. then now i out of puffs. so mcm very.. errr ape tuh.. geram tau. nk beli something tu atau waste it all on smoking. k dala.

kk put that on hold 1st.
so i got to know my bio results already la. err 78% if tk salah. which is a B. Just one more mark to get A ah. like damN! kla nevermind la. wua pe classmate ask me ah how i never study, study also last minute one ah, but can get high marks. my jawapan?
Smile only lor. and and i say la, just ask from God and you shall receive.
Hooooooooo*holy sound*

k dah. so next monday got PCA, that one abit dangerous ah so maybe if tk lazy i go study la. see how la k. :) kkk how many sheep jumpjumpjumpjumpjumpjumpjumpjumpjumpjumpjumpjumpjumpjumpjumpjumpjumpjump
over the wall? u know? k go count. clue u want? dont count how many 'jump' k go figure.

ohh ohh, talk about people k. a friend of mine ni ah, he world ah he. he tells me stories about him, like really interesting and weewit stories, nice to hear la but don't know betol ke tak. like poor thing ah, why eh people like to get attention gitu? okay la, if u say u hot kan, don't need to tell everyone la. kla, sorry la. i know la wua bukan famous macam lu, tapi lek ah. pelan pelan ah.

ohh ohh just remembered, that begum just message me, must pay $1.70 ke ape nth. aiyoo, kla kla, for you la kan. can laa. ohh speaking of her, just now she call SAFwanny, suro bangun untuk skola. aiyoo, that boy ah.. very lasmape ah. like always, toooo pasal die cute. eh wanny eh? hehehe. ork ork ork!
k dah

Errr ape lagiks ehh.. ohh ah malam dapat pe? k random la. err drumiah(durriah) Nislakes(rhymes with cornflakes for nisha) Beh-Guum(u know who you are) hehehehe. baik nye aku. Sholes slamo!

Err aku rase sudah cukup la gini. skarang nk private sikit ah. kkk. muah

A.N - Till when? you said you have nothing against me, but you treat me like maseh ade gitu.
aku just tk paham nape kau tk leh just caye aku? tk leh caye yang aku tak bersalah. kalau aku
salah aku da mintak ampon sia, beribu ribu ampon sia. tapi aku pasal tak salah tu pasal
aku diam aje. nak kasi kau cool down dulu. abeh tak kan sampai lame gini kan. okay la, aku tak
leh pakse kan nk baik2 kan so takpela. aku tetap tunggu je ah.

You - you kate you nak ubah? you buat salah abeh you mintak maaf. ni bende asik repeat repeat je.
i tau la mmg mesti ade ups and downs tapi kite macam slalu je down. pasal same bende lak tu.
i tak cakap banyak sini la. malas ah nk type. pasal nk beli bende tu, i ingat u nk support i ke
ape, ingatkan u betol2 tau yang i nk bende tu, api u tk tau. so tkpela, u tkya fikirkan tu.
i support and motivate myself. haiss

hello laa

2009-01-23T22:32:00.002+08:00

Hello hello!

I know la. Old habits don't die hard la kn. like biasa la, busy la.
So so, how am I? I'm fine. school? i got 3 or 4 projects to do. so, not stress la. how also must relek ah.

k la on to non-boring stuff. Im now chatting with zorot bot and kinah begum. wan, pls, really. i love u soo much thts why i give it to ur butt. u can take it. and to kinah, kinah merepek*taslim's stlye*
woooo!!

okay so tomorrow im going to johor till monday tau people. so dont miss me sooo much la. err wait. no no! can can! u shud. kk dah. and to mullili, im sure u miss terengganu spiderman, so i'll make sure the rindu-ness will be gone. hehe.
and and kinah!! kinah begum! like sedap eh name kinah begum? kn kn. hehe i know. i made it. to kinah, LAME*phillis tan style* that's all. k dah

ohh ohh, to fcukers, beely the 3D lat man, plan nk uat mcm chalet sort of thing of 27/28 feb. so make ur self free tau eh. nk celebrate multti and nash's Bdae. so hoped to have fun. yey!

ohh next thurs klu tk salah la kn, is my Bio paper. so alek johor, must bebelajar la. then bio punye project lagk belom buat la. aiyoo. eerr ade pape lagk nk cakap tk?
i dont think have ah. so kan, i want to sign off now la.
k can eh?
nk lipat aju ah kt bawah blk. k muah

Muhammad Taslim Ali Khan

A day passed

2008-12-21T01:19:00.002+08:00

Hey so yea, at 2:23 am now im updating.
yea, err i don't really know what to talk about but i'll try my best.

Okay so later im going to my TTSH grp pit at pasir ris. Nabil's going to fetch me via taxi. so yey! And what;s going to happen is... hopefully is great laa.

back to the past kejap eh gang, yesterday after pencak, me and the boys lepak-ed at Tmart mac, till around 4+. We terserempak with Aliffi there! woo! rindu die. haha. he got what he deserved from me. after a long time of not releasing my nafsu, got to release it on alipipi also can la. huhu! KUWANG HASYAM!!

k dah. then we talked about stuffs. haha! hey hey! *while scratching back* ' korang da beli calender belom ni? '
or or ' dari woodland eh? ' hahahah! k shh you normal people won't understand. cause you'll never understand. ergh! pfft!

so I think that's about all laa for now. so sooo ape lagik eh? errm ohh
yea. errr, to you kan,
have fun la skrg eh. I da tk leh control u lagik kn. setiap kali i larang u uat gini atau gtu, u uat jgk. :) so i guess my hands are losing their grip. so hope u can take care of urself la. cause i know i can't. you have done alot of things that i told you, you couldn't. So it proves to me that you're like a bird wanting to get free from your cage. well, now you are. Hope your happy. make alot of friends okay? Be happy always with whoever. I'll control whatever i need to. so you won't have to go thru hell. i don't want to be the bad guy here. So to all of her supporters, im sure as hell you guys are happy too. So take this time to allow other guys to make friends with diyy, so when she's tired and sick of me, she has another replacement. so yea

Im no emotional eh multiboy. Im still that strong, fearless and that stupid Taslim u knew since sec sch. I'll always stay this way. I never cry, and never will. N Afdulbi-gotman, if ur reading this, remember, im strong, i don't cry. huhu!

so yea that's all. nytes everybody.

Broken

2008-12-19T21:05:00.051+08:00

She said she hated me.
She wants a so called 'break'.
This sounds very similar somwhere?
ermm ohh yea. I forgot, a bitch last time told me this too but ended up having another faggot. Just make it quick so it doesn't hurt so much.

ohh why should history repeat?
why am i facing the same thing over again?
If you have another guy just say it. Don't pretend to say you love me. I won't blame you. really. Its just simple, just say 'Hey, I don't love you anymore buster. Now get out of my life!' see simple right?
okay so now your out of someone, i don't care who it is. okay.. and your telling me you went out so?? for what?! hahah! you don't need to. you have things your way. You couldn't listen to me anymore so what for telling?

fcuk

So hope you take this chance to find that perfect guy. But don't disgrace me by finding stupid mats ah please.

fcuk

'I hate you. I do'
ohh I'll remember this words always.

fcuk

okay stop it with her. Why bother idiot? she dumped you already. SO move on stupid. ergh! drama la aku ni.
kk last ah. please ah. last last.

fcuk!!!

k dah. thnks.

okay Taslim is strong.So Taslim don't need anyone's help now.Only I need are ciggs. I know it isn't a perlu to write it here, but wth? its my blog what. Yst I smoked 10, the day before also 10. now I'll make a new record among the fcukers. I Muhammad Taslim is going for a pack a day. or maybe a pack and a half a day. If Taslim can do it, So can I. wooo! k shhh

okay then soon im going to pencak. Want to fight Bulluuu boy. Want to siku kau pe kepale lagk ah beb! oh oh oh!
i remembered! yst i lepak with A.B Dulbah nasreen! his hair, walauwei! like spider sting sey. klu krg tk ketawe means krg kental. psl krg tk phm. ahh. huhu!

okay then. want agogo now.
muah!

You hurt me real bad. you broken my trust. you say you love me but..
hais. You don't know how much I love you. hais.
Im broken and tattered.

Hate breed

2008-12-16T11:51:00.050+08:00

So hey, yea long time no updates.
got complaints from people so to satisfy their wants, here i am. k shh

so 1st thing, i better let go what i ahve in mind now so i won't forget it.
Okay, heard from gf tht her friends are telling her to break up with me. why? cause im too controlling.
okay wait, are you my gf's mom or dad to tell her to do tht?
no? ohh. you are? her friends right?
and do you know if she is happy with how i am? she is fyi. and why are you all still telling her to do so.
so there's some bitches and asses told her.

There's this 'alien+chameleon_eyed gerl', a 'tall bitch', 'goofy's cousin', 'big perverted bastard', 'guy who thinks his cool with his a7x bat and guitar', 'guy who thinks his cool too with his stupid biddy eyes and irritating horny behaviour', 'a hippo with crocodile's teeth', and lastyly, 'a female rapist who thinks she's sooo attractive'. ohh ya, the guy with the stupid guitar too is a pervert. tsk tsk

Sorry if i missed some of you here, but yea. these are the people who really needs to get the smackdown from me.
Don't teach me how to handle my gf, she's mine so don't KPO k. I've been keeping quiet cause like i say, i don't want to be the bad guy but don't take advantage.
Oh yea, suddenly heard of something."Calm waters doesn'y mean there's no crocodile" haha! okay okay one more."Don't provoke the tiger when he doesn't want to be provoked" vah vah!

okay shh

and to gf, don't worry, im learning to control my anger. The only thing that stands between them and hospital is knowing that what ever i do will be a sin. so I won't do it. yeah.

ohh so next. this sun insyallah im going to my Cp's pit at pasir ris. maybe i'll be over nighting. I want to go to swamp. want to find old gfs there. huhu! maybe i'll find my lost candy wraper friend there too. :)

and insyallah and hopefully the fcukers are going out on the 29 to sentosa. i miss them soo soo sooo much. please let it happen. amin.
i suddenly want to say this,'You have alot of friends who will laugh with you, but those who are true will cry with you'
awww. its from afdally man. haha.
okay then

so i think thts all. so so soo long and goodnight.

Change

2008-11-17T00:46:00.002+08:00

Well hey
long time no updates because of work. okay now i'll try to update whenever i can orite?
yeah. so yeah. k now this is my blog so what i say is my pasal k.

so now im just watching anime. at 12:52 am. tmrw is afternoon shift.oh yeah. wanna knw sumtin?? my fren is a rockstar!! wooohooo! goo beel go! beel all the way!
beel cool sey
k done

so yeah. now i gotta let it all go.

I tried controlling. but she's like okay at first, but as time pass, she seem like wanting to break free. she claim not to go above me but her actions doesn't fit with wad she say.like am i the one thts changing or is she? she keeps on fighting bck alot nowadays.
1: told her nvr to talk I U in english with another guy.i dont like it. still she don't want to listen. still she did tht. some more with who? with her bloody fcuking ex! fcuk! haish
den told her to only ask wad they want. but noo she wants to have a longer cht with her ex, okay fine. if she wants it. she got it. i cant do anytin rite? her ex is more impt then my instructions. so fine gerl. u have it ur way. damn i hate!
then now she wants to be alone. okay fine. i promised to make her happy always and not asked for anytin. then i will. n i want to highlight' MAKE HER HAPPY'.
then her happiness shall be taken care off. i dont want to knw abt mine. let her be happy.
haish
so thats the story for now. maybe i'll update tmrw. if im alive la. now i want to smokey smokey. so take care poops!

BBF

2008-10-13T22:23:00.002+08:00

TO you friend

Hey, maybe you dont know but Im still not over this. Coz i knw ur still not happy about it. ur not satisfied coz of the way i apologise. okay then. since i've started my attachment its hard to meet u face2face. n u guys tk ajak kluar lagk kn, so i'll say it here. Im sorry. I really am. I didnt mean to get u involved but it just happened. I wanted to only talk to my gf about it but somehow u get to knw about it. so from my heart i apologise to you again. N if u tink that this isnt enuf, im ready to kneel of u want me to. I just want us to be like last time. so yea im done.
hope to hear from you soon.

30 sep

2008-09-30T03:23:00.002+08:00

So last day of puasa. well glad Hari Raye has come.
But sad coz my puasa, well... its not perfect. sad yea.
okay then. i hope next year would be a better year.
Amin

SO now im chtting wif one of the hottest..wait! damn! its wrong! NOT ONE OF THE HOTTEST! the most hottest guy in the world of hot hot people!! NASH man!
hahaha. so yeah. Claims himself to be hot but when i told him his hot, n u knw wad happens? u knw like bunga malumalu? yeah. like that ah! hahah. he shy ah. yelah. i also shy person actually. really. u people puji me only, my face like want to explode gtu kn. hahaha. eh kinah eh? eh durriah eh? eh faridah eh?
ahhhh ....

okay then. now im logging off. i want to go call gf. so nytes
muuah!

Bulan

2008-09-28T02:03:00.002+08:00

Hey nites people.
so here i am. blogging at 2:04am. im down with fever. still smoking. my phlegm or the green2 thing is increasing. soon fever will rise up. I WILL not stop smoking.hee. till i reach that level for the 3rd time. Im goin to get the duck's voice. kool tau. serious serious. bedek tk.

okay thts abt me.

soo next... let's talk about me again.
But 1st i would like to say this
' Jealousy in romance is like salt in food. A little can enhance the savor, but too much can spoil the pleasure, and under certain circumstances can be life-threatening.'

yeah. cool rite? yeah i knw. Taslim katekn. ane tk kool. huhu! prasan ye tau. eh tkpe ah. AKU PE PASAL AH!*mat's tone*

This is my blog, so i rule here okay people. ME! TASLIM! The most coolest guy in my dreams. anyone want to beat that? nope? haha! i knew! you you you people are not just up to standard. so please, just go cry in the toilet bath tub.(So cooling-ly sad) (ohh yeah! make sure u on the shower. Its more emo like thingi. yeah! ;) )

okay shh!
IM King so so only i speak.
okay now my turn to pick a topic. so let's talk about.

ermm.. okay okay.
how about soccer? nehh! too girlish
ermmm...School? nehh! too schoolish
errr yeah! about the 9 fcukers! yeaH!

haha. so let's talk about me. the rest u can just put inside banana leaf and give the apek. okay? lek ah bros, leh bbual pe.abeh asl? wua bdk Sanatu punye! mau bikini? opps! bikini*
eh bikini lagk. (sorry was watching sumtin just now.hehe.not porn eh. its like love in motion.huhu! )

okay wad was it just now? ohh yeah. about bikinis. so wad about bikinis? ermm.. i love it when MMS wears it. His soo sexy. haha

ohh yeah! now i remember sumtin! i was goin to type this down.
ermm..

its about me rite?? heheheh! u guys shud have told me u knw! what? u guys are jealous? awwww. sorry. kk muah!
okay? yeah.
so u want me to talk about u guys?
ohhhooookay then. so let's talk about my frens.
starting from? 9 fcukers? ohh sorry. sold off to the apek oredi laa. dapat 90 cents tau. leh beli air kotak.
kk let's talk about.
ermmmm.
okay i knw! the Queen of Queen of Queen of merepek. If im not not around, She rules the school with her..jokes.
so wads her name..ermm.. let me see. i knw her jokes are not funny. thats y her best girlfrens calls her 'joke not funny'.
okay yeah!

' Rasanya! memang dulu aku tk percaya, sehingga ku jumpa Sakinah! yada yada yada etc etc'
so here name is Sakinah. erm. wad about her makes her popular. ohh yes!! her VOICE! her CHARACTER! her VER FAST AND DANGEROUS HANDS!! and lastly, her JOKE NOT FUNNY.
hahah. kla kla. ltr majok lak. so next on the list!

ermm..She has this thing about challenging her english with mine. which i hate so much coz she can never win me but still she does which makes me unhappy coz i knw i will win but stilL! she wants to melawan. haiss. pity her. lol. lek ah fridah. we all same gang. tolong menolong kn. alaamak.
kla kla. sudah tu sudah la. nnti tknk gang lagk kn. ah ahh. jgn menyesal eh. selagi aku maseh ade ni. ahh..

okay so we move to the next person, okay. ermm.. ohh yeah. warning to people, this girl here, the one im about to alk about, is...extremely highly dangerous like her Queen The Sakinah gerl. as soon as she starts laughing, damn! her hands starts to punch slap or whatever she wants to do. u just have to becareful people. butt! although she seems highly deadly, inside she has the heart of the goddess of the sea.(wah chey chey!) she is quite encouraging coz she always reminds me of how hot i am (which i knw i am butt i act like im not)
and it feels good. :)

yeah okay. lastly its for suhana to let u knw ur not forgotten. coz, ur only a minute older than me. coz when it was 15 sep 11:59 pm, u were born, then 16 sep 12 mid, i was born. so ur older by a min. so yeah!
hahah.
okay lastly, i would like to talk about..
nvm.
just to put it short and sweet.
I love you.
haissh.

okay so the apek man is back. soo the 9 fcukers nye turn. ermm. wait. suddenly my fingers like cramp. soo sorry dudes.
gotta go mates.
sleep man. so u bitches take care aites!
yeah!
UNITED!*clapclapclap
UNITED*clapclapclap

done

Wake Up Call

2008-09-27T06:43:00.002+08:00

Hey Wake Up Call!
so its 6:43 am in the morning. i havent slept from pencak. damn im tired. haha. wanted to sleep but long time havent log in frenster. so just checking the out. then yada yada.

damn those three girls in my class. hahah. argh! told you once & for the last time, Im Not Hot laaa. arghh! Why? why? why are you girls giving me these false hopes? Why are you so cruel? Am I really that Ugly till you have to lie so much just to make me feel betteR? awwww. but still. enuf is enuf. If im hot, the whole nursing students would go for me. But they didnt. (damn!) so yeah. so no prove. Find some other person that agrees with you girls, then I'll lose. Then Pizza hut la we goo. hehe. Insyallah ye.
so thats that.

oh yea. Gang says they want to jiwe brothers so sume want to buy same colour. ermmm okay so UNTUK KORANG AH. FOr YOU GUYS. Mesti boleh. conferm Shitts. n Soon I'll be botaking my hair.

jeng jeng jeng!
ehhh tk laa. rmbt mesti jage. hidup mesti degil. fuuuuh! fierce ah lim. hahah k diam ah. ermmm..
ohh yea. just found out a secret. huhu! dalam diamdiam eh? hehehe. tkpe tkpe. Just B happy for yourself. I wont disturb. :)

okay okay. soo now i wuld awnt to go to sleep. Coz like .. ermm. no tired ah. not sleepy. just want to ber-dreaming ah. Think about stuffs u knw. yeah! so good morning.

LOVES!

haha siol ah.

Hello hello hello

2008-09-24T20:54:00.002+08:00

Hey gang!

hey im down with fever and i was out wif gf just now. so hais tired ah beb. excercise2. huhu!

so ermm puasa da dekat habis and i have beedn wanting to find malam qadar. hope i do find it. i want to taubat se taubat taubat nye. aiyoo my dosa i tink like mount everest dunno how times the size. aiyoo. : (

okay soo ermm.. oh yea, ive been thinking of where am i wanting to go after graduating. option 1: if my Gpa is high i wuld go take up paramedic course. Option 2:If not, i wuld try checking out IMH at 2.1 and if its okay, i'll sign bond wif them. Option 3:if all else fails, i wulf sign on with Ns. If can i join police. huhu! habis korang. yelah diam laa

emrm okay soo yea i duno wad to type.

ohh yea

to kinah durriah n faridah. for the last time, im not hot, im just the normal but NOT typical guy. haha. remember that. okay so maybe we have till 2.1 so, more time to enjoy me. ahah

okay done

Today

2008-09-16T00:40:00.002+08:00

Hey hey gang!

long time no see

so yea today...

to... day....

IS MY BIRTHDAY LA SIOL!!
woo!
yes out of sixteenism & into seventeenism.
yes
atleast now im closer to 18!
huhu!
n 17 is a nicer number than 16
hahaha
eh betol pe!
dah diam ah

okay so the boys wished me. we lepaked at afgan.b4 tht at Tmart with aliff and saiful and faris
aliff..haha...shit boy!
hahahahah
ohh ya , chtting wif durriah, she promised a present! yessss!!!!!! im holding to tht promise tau. make sure.. k dah
n also some deared frens also wished me. ermm im having sim training later and also tmrw.
after that, back to hospital. aiyoo but good news is, i wif nabil yan n helmi
soo its going to fun i guess. boys u knw i knw.hahaha

okay sooo.. ermmmm

ohh ya.. i just did some researching just now.
ermm about smoking.
it can cause liver cancer. a sign of it is abit of yellowish colour in the eye. ermm.. n ya i have tht. damn!
if not lung cancer its liver. n recently, i've been having wheezing for like 2 weeks+. ermm aiyoo

tkpe laa, insyallah nutin happens. fyi ppl, im the strongest person in the whole world tau. kn mul n wan? ah drg2 pn. haha
k dalaa just in case, ermm i die, i wuld like to take this chance/peluang, to apologise to every sgl peroson i've meet. b4 i die, i will give equally my 10 million dollars to each of my frens. yea k dalaa mepek laa. diam laa

klaa gtg now . no sleeps la babe. so nytes muah!

psst!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TASLIM!! YOU SO CUTE! WAAAAA!!!

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2008-09-01T00:34:00.002+08:00

SO hey hey!

Just reached home from lepaking and tawarih.
haha
yes tawarih
haha
u knw i knw.
i was with nash ful wan faris burnt etc etc
like old times
when we meet up at night

like how we always go smayang terawih
opps!
tawarih laa
yeah! so tmrw is the beginning of the holy month
now this is the time to charge my powers.
harap2 dapat laa dapat sumtin lpas puasa ni

this is a short update.
soo yea.
tke cre people.
nytes muuah!

Hello, Im back

2008-08-24T22:48:00.002+08:00

Hehehe.

hellO!
Im back
due to overwhelming response.
i had to force myself to update. aiyoo.
popular sgt ke aku ni?
hahaha. kk shh..
okay soo how are you?
okay im fine thnk you.

lets talk about studies.

soo school, i got Behavioral Science test.
n im not goin to study.
i'll study tmrw morning.
when the whole class is studying.
I disturb everyone 1st den i study.
huhu!
disturb is a must.k dah
btw i got 45/50 using this method tau.hehe

ermm...okay honestly.my classmates are sometimes really irritating.not all ah but..there are some.they're like..haish.nvm.
but i learned my lesson.

If ur too kind n always joking around.they will step over you.arghh! really irritating!
kk dah sabar lame.
kk *breathe*
k dah.

then talk about..ermm..
the fcukers.
okay so lets start Nash or wad he liked to be called.
he in BIo thingi.he always brags about his chemistry.yada yada.etc etc.always saying his hot but when is puji-ed.malu lak.ahah.its all in the 9 blood.haha.aku pn gtu la.hehe
About Multazam, he is in NYp doing his mecha stuff.i dont knw wad the heck its about but sounds cool so Cheers for him! wooo!honestly he is one lucky guy to get such a good girl.really dude.klu aku tau aku make mazi dulu.haha.
lek ah siol leh bbual pe.abeh asl?mau bikin pe?
hahahahah!
okay about Wawan, He the enginner type of people.agknye ah.tkpe ah tk igt ah tpi i knw his in electrical engineering thingi.He also one type of chick magnet.haha must learn his ways.haha
next is MAt, he paramedic guy.ermm i just went his house just now.sibok2 jek.hehebut i like to go to his house.like my 2nd home.cn sleep there.huhu!
then ermm..next is alip
just now also go his house.celebrate his belated birthday.
he still that shorty danggit boy.his butt is still as sexy as ever.its soo inviting.huhu!
Saiful, he da botak.haha.k dah.matao wif him.dah.ahaha
Beel, last time i meet him was when i also was on the way to mat's house.he wif some chick.aiyoo how does he do it? he always get alot of chicks.haha. must learn from him.
ermm.mcm ade org tertinggal ah.sape ehh.ermm....ohh ah2!
ray laa.haha. lupe lak.ermm long time nvr see him.
he is really studying for O's.haha gd boy seyy
k dah!
hahaha.

now i tink da cukup.
so i wnt to go enjoy myself.hehehehe.
multazam u knw.hehe
so tke cre.
nex time i update again lor.
dunno when but i will.
soo muuaah!

Done

2008-06-25T01:23:00.002+08:00

Okay

To sumone,
i dunno hu the hell makes those stories about me.but nvm.
If this is what He wants then, okay.I'll accept his judgement.
If you still dont believe me then i cnt do anything la.coz what for i try to convince you when you'll nvr believe me.so yea.

but ya, one thing.im confused by a certain action of yours.you claim to hate me, but...erm...nvm..hahaa.
so yea..Im sorry if you think i made up those stories.Im sorry if some sec 5 ppl told you that.

soo yea.sorry for everything.i knw u wont forgive me, but atleast i tried.

okay okay skip that part.
to to to....
wan, oi! i nd my hair cut pls!
alaaamak!
my hair like so tebal oredi.aiyoo..

n ya i tink i'll b goin to a sum where.only dol & mul knws where it is.its full of black shadows.hahaha!the place got alot of cheap clothing.but lawa2 seyy.must go must go!
haha!
kla da malam.must go rest.
suddenly my chest feels so tight n itchy.i tink im dying..
wahh!! hahaha. hope not.
its only asthma, watery lungs & heart beat like cartoon.
neh, i wont die.i cnt.huhu!
kk gtg now.want to burn my lungs again.
nytes!

Lies

2008-06-24T06:30:00.002+08:00

So hello!

early in the morning.
had a chat wif dol 4 awhile.about stuffs.
then yada2.

then.
ya about someone.
i tink she lied.
i dun tink there's anyone hu told her that i made up stories abt her.
ya.coz if theres is, she shud b able to tell hu they are n not just saying 'your close frens'.
u said my close frens in sec 5.
theres only saiful n syahrir.
n i knw i nvr told them anything.coz there was nutin to tell in the 1st place.

but i was confused when a certain sumone told me sumtin about her.then i was...erm erm...y is she double facing..
so hus double facing now?

acting with differ people.

my frens wuldnt lie to me.i trust them.
If other sec 5 ppl told u other then saiful or ray, they must b lieing.coz i nvr told anyone about u.
haha.
merepek je.
i shall not xplain anytin.

so b4 u judge me, get in infos right 1st.
make sure u know hu told u those stupid stories b4 saying me those things.

Holidays

2008-06-16T10:32:00.003+08:00

Hey!!

haha
like long long ago gtu kn tk update blog.
yelah busy la kans.

so soo.
i just finish my attachments.
den got got 3 weeks of holidays.
then wooohooO!!!
back to sch!
hahaha.
then its back to being who i was b4!
hahaha.

well, my health condition hasn't improve.
i sometimes do get asthmatic.
i dunno but i tink my lung infection thingi maybe gone.
but but my heartbeat still sort sort.
aiyoo

hahaa.

n n i jsut read sum bitch's blog.fcuk laa.
fyi i nvr said those things la cb!
i found out they all were not from me.
fcuking bitch!
judge ppl anyhow only.
i nvr storied anytin to anyone la fcuk!
pla cb pe pompan.
suke ati kau laa.

lain kali eh.kau confrm kn dulu sape yg uat crite dulu aru tuduh aku la bodoh!

fcuking stupid.

childish ppl.
calls others childish.tk sedar diri.
fcuk you!

judge me fuck you!

2008-04-15T23:45:00.009+08:00

Hey!
to all those hated ppl!
You cn burn in hell!
hahahah

ohh y ohh y?
why am i soo good?
aiiyoo yooo
they say the good guy alway wins.
but!hahah
i never win!haha
so so!it means im not good.n it means i dun have to be good.
ohh yes yes!
so so i can start be not good.hahaha.mepek nye

i've been wanting to try drinking..erm...
kk put that on hold.
how abt breaking my record of 5 sticks in 10 mins.erm erm...
n n ..nthlaa...
n!! yes!doing wad guys do best!
cheating!
ahahaha.
cb laa.hahah.i need to be tougher wad..soo sooo must do wad mat sutuns do.you don't like mw for who i am?den screw me!just go shoo shoo!Do not judge me you motherfcukers!fcuk you!
mcm nk uat
tattoos?erm erm...considering..mcm vile valo?amcm?
ahahha
hey!
just had my 2nd day of attachment.like so mendak siow sia!
like erm okay laa.did some jobs..her & there.den okay..like mcm nk quit ah.but let's see how the rest of the days is goin on.
soo see ya!update nex time ppl!tke cre!i wanna go smoke smoke smoke!wooohooo!!

I'm feeling real low now.i really don't know what to do.she uses really harsh words to throw me away.it was really upsetting.After reading her blog.was even more heart breaking.By some other stuffs too.i won't tell about what.is she realises then good la.if not.haha!tkpe laa.im born to be cheated at.haha!satu laki tk cukup.haha.ape laa.
okay laa.da stress btl ah.aku mmg lahir kuat jealous.ape nk uat.
to that mat-kau tk suke aku kau leh mati la pukimak!sial pe bdk!aku tk penat sia rase marah gini.aku jumpe kau.hidup tk slamat ah sial!

Not Straight

2008-04-10T00:46:00.003+08:00

Hey hey !

Yea, i noe irritating isn't waiting for me to update but i didn't.
same reason busy but with dunno wad as usual.

Ohh ya.
I recently made a new fren.
His name is Asthma.
We meet on friday.& we've been friends till now.
I really enjoyed my time wif him.
He really knows how to make me suffer.
opps!sorry.make me breatheless.
ya.
Thnx dude.Love you!

k done.

Another story.
How about my life?
Im not straight.(some may know)
It really is goin up & crashing down.
Some are really great times.
but other times.
It really sucks.

i don't really know what i want now.Its like so so many decisions decisions.
Why why soo pressurising?
alamak..
chill laa.
I'll live long enuf.
no need to rush kn

n n
now kk
let me..
erm........
refresh on my life.

I broke up with my ex.
I lost all feelings for gerls.
I changed.
into...another person.
Someone with a stoned-heart.
I cnt love another gerl ever since.
so day & night i find sumone to love.but failed.
Till i found an interesting one.
I dunno y but i feel soo gagagugu everytime i see her.

It all started on the 1st day of sch.
i went into sch hall.found my class.sat.looked at my future classmate.'ohh damN!how cool cn dey be?"
but it ain't kind to say that.so shhh.I was looking ard.& i saw this gerl.she was looking ard too wen she suddenly stopped n looked at me.she smiled at me.i was like."eh, pe je pompan ni senyum2 kt aku"but i smiled bck.
after a few days.i kept bumping into this gerl n she kept smilling at me.
Till one day.I was attracted.odd though how i was attracted just by her smile.
as days passed, my liking for her grew more.I want her!so i aked ard for her name.got to noe she was my classmate's fren.classmate refused to tell her name.told me to go asked myself.so after sch again begged to noe her name.but still cnt get it.n got to noe.another guy is chasing her.so,haizz.decided to give up.
nex day,went to lockers.took things n was waiting for lift.saw her!wah!its was really heart melting.But remembered abt that other guy.so kept quiet.was wif fyan that time.was standing in front of lift.she walked behind me.n when she passes me.i looked at her frm behind.awww!wow!den alamaK!she pusing ah!alamak!alamak!den was waiting for lift t open.den open den went in.just abt to clse.he tahan the door.asked for the gerl's name.I was liked.alamaK!yan!jgn mepek ah kau.fcuk laa.malu laa aku.gt to noe her name.went bck to the lift.'fcuk laa yan.asl sey kau.malu ey aku.'
"name die Z"
'WoooooHOOOOO!!!baik ah yan!hahah.thnx thnx!haha.so..Z....'
days passed, saw her alone after sch.was wif yan n nabil.
yan:' Eh lame,gi ah mntk num die.'
me:'tknk ah.aku tk tau sia mcm ne'
yan teach me how to.
bt his werds fell on deaf ears.i was bz admiring her beauty.
hahaha.den me'ahh.kk.boleh.cn cn.aku kool.kene uat.'
so i walked,my heart was beating soo fast.i walked slowly frm bhind i faced her side.
me:Hie, erm tgh..tgu...kwn eh?
Z:Hello,ah2 tgh ....tgu die...
Me:erm..*taking out hp*can...i...erm....erm...hv ur number?
Z:*looked straight into the eyes for some time n smiled*
Me:*thinking,alamaK!tk spt ah.fcuk ah.malu nyee.alamak*
Z:ahh....okay....*give num*
Me:nk letak name ape eh?
Z:ohh....erm.....XXX(1st name)..........tk tk..erm...XXXX(middle name)
ME:ohh..kk..erm...kla...i gtg ah..k...tke cre....bye...
Z:ohh..kk...bye...
I walked away..straight to yan n bil.signalling them to move out of sch straight to bustp.I was extemely overjoyed.I was walking towards bustp.suddenly,from afar.spotted Z wif fren walking to bustp.Me:eh lamak!eh cepatceptdie dtg ah.
we walked fast so bustp.den bus pn dtg.we toke it.it seems Z is oso taking it.alamaK!we sat on the 2nd deck.was too shy oredi sey.
hahahaha.
So days passed, i was soo damn happy to be contacting her.but as time pass, it seems as though she doen't like me.so asked a fren to like help ah.likeshe doen's reply my msges.
sad moment.i was really stucked on her.She really opened my heart.I was soo stuck on her ven wen she msges me an empty msg.i was soo happy.i could do anytin for her.she wanted flowers.i cn buy.since V'dae is nearing,i wanted to buy it for her.one fine day, gt to noe her classmate likes me.she told me that she was jealous.i was feeling soo loved!i was soo confident that she likes me.
but one fine day.a day or two b4 V'dae, my fren told me she told him Im not her type.
I was realli crushed, beaten, smashed into pieces.I cry seyy.alamak!i was really in love sey with her.I drank her love potion i was drunked by her sight,voice & love.
it took me alot of time to forget her.Coz she was the only gerl hu opened my heart for love.I was...sooo...Bombed by her rejection.
i guess maybe ard 2 mths i was still feeling the pain.

soo after this incident.I cnt find another one to replace her.Someone who cn make me go gagagugu by her sight, melts me with her voice, electrifies me by her touch & burn me in her love.soo ya..

& now...They're 2.
I hv reasons for not picking.

soo till nex time.i'll update my sad stroy. tke cre you you ppl.

I loved, I Crushed, I moved on.

Alamak!

2008-03-30T01:19:00.002+08:00

Hey hey you you

haha..
hello!
k shhhh

Sorry long time nvr update..
been busy ah
i oso dunno abt wad ahh just bz onli..
ohh
ya Attachment is nearing.n
i feel soo damn lazy man!
wonder y ppl are looking forward.
i'd rather sty in school n study for 2 yrs.
ya sey.pe sey.

erm....anything interesting...erm..
ohh ya yaa.
i tink yesterday or 2 days bck.my gang n nursing gang met up.
we has fun.
haha.we do wad we do best.
Slacking!yey! ya okay shh!
k yada yada..dis dat dis dat.
den dah.

ohh yaa..
I have a new going to be bestfren..yey!hahah.
& his/her name is .....nehh.cnnt tell.
must see how 1st.
hahaha.

n n n..
I want to go beach ahh.
slack at the water breaker.
look up into the sky.at the stars.
wahh..soo peaceful.admiring the waves.
"seasons are changing & waves are crashing"
n i want to be with all my frens.the fcukers.my sch gang.goin to be bestfren.n if cn Mrs.
wah!den ltr we all take pics.eat eat.smiles n laughters.wouldn't it be great.
ish..

kla..
now im chtting wif bul n dal!
n oso......herm.......ya..
so ya..
blog in ltrs..

Hello Im back!

2008-03-14T02:08:00.002+08:00

Hey ya!!

Long time no type!
okay so ya!

okay a few daes back.its like last sat
Me Mul Nash N Ray went swimming!
huhu!!

fun sey!
We meet up at 8 am.
went in.found a locker.
n
jeng jeng jeng!
swim time!
but 1st!
ray went in 1st.
after dat..mul was at the edge of the pool.so!!
me n nash pushed him in!
hahha!
den me n nash felt for the water..
damn!! cold!!
aiyooyoo!den i slowly go inside.den wa sey!
cold seyyy!! brrr!
den we played wif the water..
yada yada
n ya.i asked the guys to teach me how to float.i tried..tried so hard!
but cnnt sey!
cn laa abit.bt den sink slowly..den slowly i like nt afraid of goin in the water.den cn open eyes inside water.huhu!
fun sey play in the pool.den play wrestling!den at the end of the dae.
we had body cramps and pain.my left palm swollen.dunno how dat happen.
aiyo!
hahaha.
k den.i sleepy ah ppl..
ltr i update again k.so ya.tke cre ya.
nites!

Lifeskills Homework

2008-03-04T22:04:00.003+08:00

Silat Performance(4 hours)

My Expectations
I choose to participate because I love to showcase my skills to others so others would be interested to join and hope that my group would grow.
I started around a year ago.I watched a performance.The sparring sessions was really awesome.I was attracted by the way they fought.
I hope to learn how to take care of myself and family members with any skills i learn from this.

Highlights & Challenges
I enjoyed the training sessions every friday nights.I always finish at 1 am.Its a paya lebar area.So I would usually slack before going home.
I do encounter some challenges.Learning this martial art, i need to be strong in my religion.So there are times when I feel really lazy wanting to pray.That's a challenge for me.haha!
I overcome them by really forcing myself to pray and turn myself into a polite and good person.I have to have lots of patience.

My Reflections
What mattered most is not if im winning in every performance.But to me, becoming a better person is more important.
I have some personal experiences that has really tested my patience, and also through these experiences,I have felt God's Love.
I don't know if i have change into a better person.but I tink i am.haha!

Cousin's marriage(8 hours)

My Expectations
I participated in this event because its one of my close cousin's marriage.He is 27 years old.I always buy clothing with him.Our family would also go on vacations together.
I only want the marriage to function well.It does cost alot.so it should go on as planned.

Highlights & Challenges
I really enjoyed taking part in preparing for the celebration.To prepare the seats and tables.It was tiring but..I got $650.huhu!
Challenges.erm, I did faced a problem like insufficient workers to help serve people.but luckily,my other cousins came and save the day.So overall it did worked out as planned.Everyone went home happily full!
haha!

My Reflections
The event going well is the most important.and that my cousin and his wife being happy too.And they are!they seem to smile all the way.
Life lessons?erm..i guessed that would be..If U want get married.make sure the wedding is grand.so buy any grand organizer to plan it all out.It will be worth it.but just make sure u have enough money left.haha.

Ohh so Late!

2008-03-04T21:56:00.002+08:00

HEy!
Long time nvr update.

gt complaints frm some great fans.
so ya.
updating.

kk..
lets see..
wad stories do i have...
kk.
i dunno ahh bt..
haha.
ah!
kk..
best..
i noe!
i do my lifeskills hw!
kk.
best.!

Preety long day

2008-02-20T00:31:00.003+08:00

Hey!

kk
fromt the top ya

let's begin with yesterday..
we were having nursing practical.
then suddenly..
while laughing2.
den my chest like hurting.
den i find it hard to breathe.den everything was goin...topsy turvy.
den like so mabuk seh..
den sumore feeling asthmatic..
so wooo!man!
den mdm norliza asked yan to send to me poly..
arrived at ard 9+..waited for like 1 hr+ till got my check up.the doc yada2..
den okay oredi.cn go skool bt still feeling a little dizzy.butt!the show must go on!
so went bck to skool den continued studying lor..
den yada2..

[NEXT]
*a story of sumone i hated..used to hate*
lets name him *S.
*S was a very good person.not realli a person.just a being.
*S was very religious.
One day the Devil changed him into an evil beast.
His name changed. his called. The most powerful Beast.
He was ordered by the Devil to cause harm to people.
N he did.not known how much ppl or other beings he makes them suffer.
till one dae *S was ordered to attack a gerl.for days the gerl suffered torment.the gerl called for help from a fren,*A.
*A was angered.*A confronted *S.They fought on the phone for some time.
*S wanted to meet *A to settle things.
They met up.*S was using the gerl's body.as that was what *A thought.They fought for some time.exchanging blows.
*A was quite spiritual strong.
So *A attacked *S by using his powers.*A with some human frens held *S down on the floor.a fren allowed *S to listen to some prayer.*S stopped fighting bck.*S listened.
the gerl seems to be fine after that.
thinking that the gerl was okay.she went home.
ltr at nite.the gerl called *A.told him *S was still alive.n wif her.*A was irritated.bt!*A was surprised wen he heard *S wanted to mend his ways.wanted to learn about religion.*A toked wif *S.*A learned that *S was from the same religion wif *A.they toked about y *S was doin harm to the gerl.*S said the Devil ordered him to.The Devil was at a far place bt could see *S.
*S told *A that now the Devil is aiming *A.wanted *A to be evil.
*A digged every info he could out of *s.
den he finally made the decision to asked *S to b gd.*S told *A he couldnt.the devil wuld kill him.*A told *S.Okay,now u listen.just b gd.if the devil kills u.by God's grace,u will b in heaven.*S did turned gd.he told *A he was goin.*A was caught by surpised!HE was shocked dat *S was turning gd.
*A received info dat *S was killed by the Devil.*A broke down in tears.soon.he received info.
That *S was now in heaven.he changed.from fire to light.his name too changed.*sorry cannt tell.*
*s is now wacthin over the gerl n *A from above.
*A was glad to hear that.*A now hopes to hear from *S soon.

[Today]
i had my phase test.i passed!bt need to redo.mepek ah my teacher!
mepek mepek mepek!

den i gt to noe..
dat NASH IS GOIN MY SKOOL!!!!
WOOHOO!!
REUNION AH SIA!!!
9fcukers slowly gettin bck!
gerek!
i like!

ohh ya..
still having asthma.i guess too much dirt in my lungs.
damN!
i dun wanna die slowly..if can straight away.fast2..so no one noes..like cool seh..
of die of cancer..
like kool!
hahah!

n a fren toked to me just now.
about having reasons to fall 4 sumone.

i told him.
if i were to love her coz she's cute.wad if one dae.i find her nt cute anymore?i shud stop loving her rite?
so it doesn't make sense if i need a reason to love someone.
so ya.
so i guess dats about all laa..
now i wanna go tok to *S.
so do take care ya.

Preety long day

2008-02-20T00:31:00.000+08:00

Valentines day

2008-02-15T02:06:00.003+08:00

Hey!

today is like.Valentines day.
like wow?
haha..
can laa..not so boring laa

the day started with lecture for bio.
yada3..
study2..

den go break..
den ah!
p.e.!!
i like!
huhu..
we played soccer.!

although i dun favour it.
bt nvm.
my klas play..i play lor..

7 guys..split.
38 gerls oso split.

so the whole klas played soccer.
like so fun!!

the gerls all..ish!kecoh ngecoh!
adoi!

i told dem i ccnt play..klu nnti ade org hurt..dey degil so..play laa.
den i bam into a fren.he fell down golek2.injured his hand n leg..
see!
i told u i cnt play.
bt fun!
hahahaha

den!
i saw the ball fly..
den den den!
bam!
hit suhana's head!
adoi!
kesian nye..
she like mabuk2.she dala small gerl..den kene hot by ball.
haha.
poor gerl..
den sumore..i asked her 'caringly'..
'su,kau okay tk?'
'ah ye..okay2'
'eh kesian nye kau..kene kt kepale..kesian...'
den yada2..
after p.e. went to cafe 2.ddk2.rest 4 a while.
then sum fcuker came up to me n asked me if i wanted to buy a teddy.i asked how much.he said $7.
like damn expensive seh.
den i reduced to $5.
den he said $6.
I said $5.50?
he laughed n say.....
cnnt2..mepek ah!
ahahah..
den i buy lor...
haha...
den behind him gt another fcuker selling cookies.
i told my fren, yan.

'eh yan,klu dekni dtg suro aku beli.aku sepak muke die'
den he came.he asked.i replied'i slap ur face!'
den he walked away.
he was a yr 2 student sumore.hhaha!kesian seh.
we gt our last lesson.
nursing studies.aiyoo!
tired seh.
den after skool..went lepaks wif adol n mul kejap.den we go maulid.
reached home at 1+
n now online la..
huhuh..
okla...
now finish..
tmrw update insyallah.
= )

I have a special bestfren today!yey!

n todae oso.
I saw winkwink's face!
alamak....haizz..cair2.
i received a big heart shaped lolli.n i give the bear2 in return.
haha!very cute!
muah!
hahahahahah!

ohh man!
damN!
sleepy3!
kk
nites!

One fine day

2008-02-14T00:40:00.002+08:00

Hey!

hello!
today really one fine day..

damn!

funeral for a friend

2008-02-10T03:07:00.000+08:00

It all started with a big yawn.

den time start!

went for ngaji just now..
went for werk after dat..

im from eunos..
running late for werk so took a cab

along the way..i was styling my hair..
then suddenly.the driver ask me..
'boy ah..u very hensom ah..how come ah..'
i was like.wtf is dis old man's motive askin me.
he said
'u realli veri hensom ah..u gt gf nt?alot of gerls like u ah?'
i replied
'hah.no la uncle.i nt hensom la.i okay oni la.no gf la uncle.i ugly la .gerls dun like me.'
he said
'haha.u veri hensom laa.'
bla3..
i just smiled n laughed..
scary.thought he might be gay.
huhu
den reached werk..

Todae very slack!i like!i wished everdae was like todae.nt many customers..
den done wif werk..
yada2..stuff like dat...

wento lepaking wif dol mul n mir n ray.
tok3 about mul's Bdae party.

how i cnt wait to celebrate.
huhu!
went home..
called my fren.toked to him about sum stuffs..
gt t noe sum realli sad stuff..
damn!
im so stupid!
1st time in my life,i gt rejected.n it feels...so...sucky..
like..eeeeeee...sucky..
haha

den gt to noe another sad story.
my fcuker fought wif his gf.
about sum idiot Danny.
I'll kill dis danny if he deserves it.
n i thing.i shed for my fcuker.bt nt 4 me.cb!
haha..
okay laa..
i need to out..
mind rushing!
nites ya

Dear

2008-02-08T00:45:00.000+08:00

Let's continue the love story of 'A'

'A' does have some success & failures.
On successful occasions,only heaven could replace its great feeling.
But on failures, death was the only way out.
days passed.The thought of their chemistry bloomed was in the mind.
thought that his long wait was becoming shorter.It's love was growing more & more as each day passed.

Till one fine day.'A' found out that 'Z' wasn't into 'A'.'A' was devastated.Shattered into a million pieces.pieces of unsolvable puzzles.
'A' was filled with such despair.His mind was in a race-like condition.confused.on wad to do.
He kept thinking.y didn't she reject his request for her contact.then all this shall not happen.
Y does 'Z' Gave hope & breaks it?damn stupid 'A'.
till now 'A' still feels the edge of the broken glass.

so now 'A' has to find a route out.

To dear winkwink*, i dun want to break up this frenship.
u don noe me yet.so im afraid dat we may quarrel alot.so I'll
xplain nex time.

I really dunno what the hell im suppose to do.really.

Burnt

2008-02-06T15:28:00.000+08:00

Hey

long time i nvr update.

been bz ya.

& now

im like in the..

quiet moment.

need to calm my mind.

stress about some ppl.

i wonder is having this face.a curse or a blessing.

even how hard i tried to be good.it alwaes fails.

i really hate dis part.

i really am confused on what to do.

damn!

Is it a curse or a blessing

2008-02-01T23:29:00.000+08:00

Drunk

2008-01-31T00:19:00.000+08:00

Every time i look at her face,
my whole body feels entirely weak.
It feels as though im drunk.
My heart melts at the sight of her face.

Every time i hated her,
I gave up on her.
But when i saw her face,
All hate was gone.
It makes me want her more each time.

A fren told me this was called
LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT
or
MABUK CINTA

To me?
Im confused.u noe the song out of reach by some gerl.
i dunno wads her name butt!no matter.

Story:
'A' woke up skool everyday, sleepy, tired & sleepy again.Butt!motivated to come to skool.
Studies are interesting.Learning new things about he human body.was energized to study.
Noon, walking, singing, daydreaming.saw 'Z'.
All of time stopped!just so 'A' could admire 'Z'.
'A' was mesmerized. Heart beat beating so fast. The world was forgotten. They sat opposite of each other.'A' looked at 'Z'.'Z' looked at 'A'. 'A' remembered that smile on the 1st day.

'Z' walked away. the rest of the day, 'A' was 'high'. He was struck by the cupid angel. the arrow was have been really dipped in Strong Love potion. The effect really lasted till the whole day.
'A' was 'traumatized' by it till 'Z's face was super elephant glued in 'A's head.

Nice story ya?ya ya ya! thnx!
so now wanna go sleep!
nites ppl!

Now may not be the time for another commitment.
Time heals wounds.It was a deep cut.It may consume alot of time.
Who knows what awaits in the future.
from winkwink*

She will be loved

2008-01-27T01:03:00.001+08:00

jeng jeng jeng!

sitting here all ...yada2..
okay..
from the top yaa
:-)

usual stuff kt umah
do wadeva yada2..
den around 2+ go out..
mit winkwink* coz she was in simei
n i mittin ray oso so mit her la skali.
she study wif her gf at bk so i kpo2 ah.
dunno wad these secondary skool gerls studying.haha!dat was like the past man!

den her gf's mataer wanted to mit her.
he was like..realli2..nvm.nt gd to tok abt ppl.
alaaa..can laa.
he was like the hip hop thingi guy
he was like smile2..shy2 ah i tink.
bt most importantly!
he said my face power!
haha!
means hot laa
so have to laa be friendly he say like dat oredi.
den winkwink* go tamp go jln2.i go mit ray ah.we sat 4 a while b4 goin to werk.
den goin to werk was hoping to see a fren..bt..nvr came.asked y nvr come.gt a scolding instead.so nvm la.I noe wen im nt wanted.=)

ah!just now.i was like in a hype mood so.
hugged ray..n licked his neck..grr!my horns were about to shoot out!haha..jk2!
den finish stupid tiring werk..
went home la..ray n me toked about the fcukers.
stuff like dat.
ppl change..i noe.bt wif members.no need to say such things.

den now..im sleepy so want to sleep.
p.s. im dunno if u realli get me?
about how i feel?
nvm..deres still time.

ohh ya!
forgot one last thing.
i felt HIS love just now.
lately i've been getting information from..dunno where.HIM laa must be.
I dunno how i can noe things sumtims.
like eg.
1)a fren send me a song.fren nvr told me hus it from.bt i suddenly had a thought its from fren's ex.n it was true!
2)i was in the toilet.wantin to noe wad time is it.i suddenly,'feel asleep' n saw a certain time.thinking it was nutin.ignored it.went out of toilet.the time i received was true!
3)I was lying down watching tv.i suddenly wondered wad was y fren doin.i closed my eyes.saw fren was doin sumtin.called fren, n dat was wad fren was doin.
4)I wanted to try this out.i called fren up.ask fren to wait.i closed my eyes.focused.saw fren in black shirt n green shorts.asked if its true.n POOF! it is!
haha..alot more examples.bt tired laa.
now goin to sleep.
so nites!

Confused

2008-01-26T00:19:00.000+08:00

Straight from dictionary:

Jealousy typically refers to the thoughts, feelings, and behaviors that occur when a person believes a valued relationship is being threatened by a rival. This rival may or may not know that he or she is perceived as a threat.

How to cope?

Admit it den try to overcome it?

Like mepek! how to overcome if its hard to control?

btw, the reason y im stressing about this is my own.im like so confused about myself.

explanation:
I dun have any more feelings 4 gerls.i feel like i cnnt love gerls..for now i hope.i want to get married u noe..huhu!
n even though i have no 'gatal' for gerls, i do feel jealous..like mepek kn! da jealous one thing, den i like unhapi wif her sumore.like i have no right to be.but i was unhapi.stupid sey

den wanting to be gay is not an option although it was a suggestion given.butt! no! no gay!

i want to like gerls.i want to be straight.
the only unsettled thing is my stupid uncontrollable
feelings of jealous. a fren told me dat shows i still am straight bt nt fully ready 4 a relationship.
so i have to wait 4 dis ordeal to go away.
coz y?
coz i realli2 cannt handle jealousy.
cnnt thn sey!bt nvm laa
next time continue.
now wanna slip!
so nites!

Out of reach

2008-01-22T23:33:00.000+08:00

E.M.O.!
E.M.O.!
E.M.O.!

a guy went to meet his fren
he went to the mrt toilet 1st
he wanted to wash his face & make himself look okay
so he styled his hair
styling2
den suddenly a gerl came in
den the gerl did not look at the guy
den the guy noticed that theres a gerl in the toilet
he was like
WTF is she doin in here?!
den the gerl n the guy like looked at each other
den from inside the cubicle
an old lady came out
its the mrt cleaner
n den
the guy realized that he was in the gerls toilet!
he looked at the gerl
he smiled n giggle
he said' opps?paiseh paiseh..hehhe'
he went to the guys toilet quickly
he refreshed his look
wen to mit his fren
den mit his other fren
slack for a while n went home.
stupid!haha!

Gay

2008-01-21T23:21:00.000+08:00

Today I realized that the whole world does not revolves around me

stupid thinking right??

kkk
im now like very bz ah these days

imagine
8 - 5 everyday!
tired seH!!!

den sat & sun werk sumore
tiring seyy seyy seyy

den now
im like
feel like very different from last time

to my kitty-
I love being frens wif u
seriously
i dun wanna lose such a fren like u
erm..
if u wan an explanation
just ask me

for some one concerned-
after we're done
i dun have anymore feelings for gerls got it?
im not in the mood for another relationship
i dun flirt
dey are my frens

n those fcukers!hahaha
FCUK U!!!hhahahaah

okay den
tke cre ya
another nursing day tmrw..

JOY

2008-01-14T01:54:00.000+08:00

Hey gerl u now u drive me crazy,
One look puts the rhythm in my head.

haha!

i feel so so so soooooo happy!
n the best part is..
i dun noe y!!

kk from the top

dis morning...
hmm..nutin special..
soo..
SKIP!!

i went to werk in the afternoon
yey!
fun!
long time nvr werk

butt ryoma no more werkin seh
mendak!
oni me n ray la den..

den just now
while making burgers
haha

a fren told me he was bisexual
haha
nt surprised
so asked him if he likes me?
sadly!
NO!!
hahaha
then he asked me..
wad kind of gerl i want to have in the future..
at 1st i did not entertain
haha
den..
i dunno y i did
hahahhahaha

so i said laa
his a malay guy butt talk to him in English hoping he wuld be attracted to me
hahaha

as i was saying
i told him
Me:I want a tudung gerl
Fren:Haha! u like mat2 want tudung2.
Me:hoi!kau asl!haha.aku pe psl ah.kkk..i want her to wear tudung, she must wear it coz of religion & not of fashion.
fren:*blur face*
Me:buek! then i want her to noe wad is rite n wad is wrong.so i will tell her in the beginning ' to think before u act.how would u feel if i were to do it' sumtin like dat ah.I want not much ah butt oni their LOVE, TRUST, CARE, HONESTY, FAITHFULNESS.
Fren:laughed.continue2.
Me:Then i say..about tudung gerls..they..their face alwaes very lawa n like the same. haha!
Fren:hmm.okay wadever.den?
Me:but my prob is ah..........*this abit secret..cannt tell*
Fren:ohh maybe coz u just not ready for another realtionship n maybe coz u like serik wif being attached.so i tink u shud just relax now.
Me:i dunno seh wad im feeling. like confused seh.

till there i forgot ah.haha..den at nite walking home wif ray otw to ab's hse. i like vomited like every 10 steps..so there is like a long trail of my mark to ab's hse la..haha..
den i gt asthma n breathing difficulties.
scary..

den yada3..reach home..yada3..
den now i wanna slip ..nites dem..

To who ever concerned:
I get jealous easily. even at the most unexpected things.so try to understand..hehhe

A day For hearts

2008-01-13T03:00:00.000+08:00

Hey yaw!

im like very bored & sleepy.
S decided to just write in before hitting in.
today was like an emotional day.

e the boys went to esplanade.
just to slack
wan dol beel ful mat alip hilmi faris elmmy n me la..there was a confrontation between us. details not important.
we talked it all out
everyone had their share.
we hugged, cried n laughed after that together.
i guess now the 9 fcukers are bck.
haha!thats good .but still
but the feeling was not the same as last time when we were close.maybe it needs time.so i shall wait for time.

i sometimes do feel unappreciated. i hate seeing them unhappy. i guess thats y i was born with such a huge heart.to store all other feelings except joy.
stupid loser bastard!

but dats me. i was born wif a soft heart.so deal wif it!

n just now.. i..

i poured out my insides out for a awhile..it do feel good as the person now noes..i guess so.
i wonder if time is on my side..
till then
nites yaw!
slippi ahh

.....

2008-01-11T22:36:00.000+08:00

Hey happy people

hope u sty dat way..

i got
about Bk
about frens
about heart issues..

i feel so tired laa..

ITE

2008-01-09T01:25:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl!
sorry long time never update my bloggie.
been busy with skool n werk.
today is like my 3rd day at ITE.
1st day was really damn tiring man

1st dae-i took bus 38 stop at east point. i walked till the campus. alone.
i reached there, was quite lost so meet up with a silat friend. I was told to go to the function hall or something like that. i was to be appointed to a class. i was in nursing class C. so okay. No problem. I sat. I looked at all my classmates. everyone was like blur! like weird people. scary man. i was hoping for some cool people i could be with.i don't want to describe them. haha. there was 7 guys n over 20 or 30 girls. wow! but too bad girls ain't pretty. haha! so i guess since they are my classmates. i try them out.
my teacher, Mdm Norliza. she's okay but she always picks me for my hair. she wants me to cut it. but! nehh! don't think so beb! haha!
We had some ice breaking games. Everyone was like really quiet u know. like shy2. so i wanted to make everyone start to talk so anything teacher ask to do, i do it funnily so they would laugh, from there friendship between them would grow. even though ice breaking games were stupid. enjoyed it still i did.
i finished at 4 n i went to meet Ab Nash & Ray. We lepak2 then around 6, i went home. straight to sleep.

2nd day-I have not bought the uniform yet so i wore home clothing. although a little paiseh, i just kept on going despite the unwanted stares.
We had a talk from the army & police department about come scheme thing.haha! I SLEPT!
soo bored! We went for a break. I was with my new friend Sufiyan. He is the only guy i can consider cool.haha! my blog so i say what i feel ah! then we went for some more talk. i forget ah about wad. but nvm. haha! there was like a CCA fair of some sort. Me n yan go walk around. checking each CCA out. there was a silat CCA! i didn't know. i feel like joining. I didn't stare but just have a long look at their booth. while thinking. A fat guy went up to me & ask.
if i wanted to join.i asked back.
'korang silat ane punye?' wah! like gangster!He said they learn under some Alla' udin guy. haha! no matter. i did thought of it for some time. i didn't join at 1st. but I'm considering about joining in. haha! i want to test them out. ahah!
after skool went to meet saiful n ray. we lepak for awhile. then we went home.
after around 8 plus. went out to meet up with ful n gang. we eat for awhile then set off to simei. meeting Ryoma. His my team leader in burger king. now his going to resign already. soo sad! no more doing gay stuff to him.

about to go home after eating pizza bought by Ryoma. it was raining like cats n dogs racing to reach earth! damn! so got an umbrella from BK n walked home with ray till his home. along the way, i was about to fall alot of times. then ray pulled me.i fell ah! knee hit the floor hard! painful!! then i complained to a friend.haha.
then as the bus approaches the bus stop, i hugged ray. haha! not gay btw. we wished each other. n went home from there.

Done! that was a summary of my ITE beginning days.so i think i will update next time. I'm feeling very sleepy now.
so nites to you all!

5 days passed - Time capsule

2007-12-25T01:18:00.000+08:00

Hello!
Its been like 5 days ago since i updated this thingi..I guess coz I've been working alot & reaching home late then too tired to use the comp.

So let me begin..
I'll type wad eve i remember
Okay

1 : I remember i was working. I was doing dining. Like cleaning tables and stuffs like that. then i like saw this father & his two sons. eating.
then when they finish. the father came up to me & asked where's the nearest toilet. coz there's no toilet in Bk.
Then He like was in a rush so i went far2 abit. i like noticed from afar that his son had a piece of chocolate substance on his leg. die2 i thought it was chocolate coz maybe he eat choco. then the substance drop on the floor. i went over to see.EEEEEEEE!!!Fcuk!!
Smelly!!!
The chocolate is SHIT!!!
EEEww!!
Then i tell my manager
Bt He is a Filipino so he don't understand so I pulled him to see it.haha!
Then he asked me to mop it..EEE!!I mop laa.smelly!!Eeee!!
whats even worst is that now the mop stinks!
& the father didn't even said sorry!
Damn him!

2 : Let me think ahh..
actually i dunno wad to say anymore so i hope the above story is entertaining enuf..so
you all do take care yaa..
& to dos reading my blog..
do tag..It feels soo cool u noe.

Moody

2007-12-20T00:42:00.000+08:00

A dae after N level results
I gt12 points sey...haizz
For all subjects 4 points!
So sad!!
But nvm..my frens all consoled me..even If i don't need it..kkk.maybe i do need it laa..but dey consoling me as if im crying..but i wasn't..ahahha..den I was very very very!! terribly! UPSET!
coz i realli dunno wad to do next..coz if i go-
ITE:I can study new things..den i alone..im nt the friendly type of person btw so difficult to make frens unless dey make frens wif me..hehe..n oso i cant stand being alone..Im soo..scared..
Stayback:I can study again & i try to pass N level..but im just sad seeing my frens in a higher level not dat im jealous..im realli happy for dem..Just dat..I need frens..
So im still 'so confused, my heart's bruised, was i ever loved by N level..'haha! nonsense!
haizzz...sadness!!
I dunno wad to do...I feel like wanna stayback..hmm..maybe laa..So still have till Friday to decide..so no worries..so till here den..
so dose readin dis..hope do advise me ya..
thnx!help much appreciated..
nites!

Alip hse

2007-12-15T18:28:00.000+08:00

Hey hEY hEY!

Im at alippi's hse..
I was bored so paided him a visit..
Just slacking around..
watched tv
Watched....hmmm..videos on his laptop..
heheheh..
mama & papa Alip is cuming home soon.so i will be out b4 dat..alip now changing..i tink or grooming himself..
to attract chickidies..
Me?

nehh...i dun need to..haha..
In few mins we meeting danny boy..they wanna buy rocks..haha!funni ppl rite they all?
wad de hell dey wanna buy rocks for?
hahã!
So i jus accompanny dem laa..n oso now i feel abit feverish..see!i just coughed!ish3!
den now dan reach oredi..hahah

wah! alippi hensom seh..pakai celak..
1st thing dan said to me..assalamualaikum..
den he said..hmm...he said....neh..cnt tell..sori..its too..mature..
hahaa..
den now still waiting for alippi..
i shout for alip oredi..den alip asked ape?
haha..den now im typing laa..hahaa..funni ah me?

okay den..now we wanna goout..soo

OPPS~!waiT!
poor dan!
he had an asthma attack...kesian..
den i tried his inhALER..yucks!
tk sedap..

kkk...now i wanna go..bbey!
lapar ah!!

Update laters..
Hey!
I sneezed loud! more den 7 times,.

MCR Day Out

2007-12-12T02:03:00.000+08:00

Hoi Hoi Hoi!!
Today is a really...hmm..tired, wild & also exhilarating day!
Tired coz i woke up at around 12.30.Need to make new ez link card.So went to Tm to take a pic den went to Pasir Ris but they person say the 'Card-Making-Machine' Spoil.Den haiyoo! go home laa.I meet up wif my Gf.hehehhe!
Dat i dun need to explain.
Den around 6 30, Adol called, asked me along to MCR concert.I was like WTH!Im wearing very slack!Den nvm laa.follow still.So its me, adol & Khair, his bro.His 1st time man i meet him.Coz i alwaes tease adol by praising Khair.Den yada3...reach dere.meet the rest.Went in.
& noe wad?The was a really long fcuking linE!we all were like...wth!!den me, dol,Khair went to the most front and saw our tix logo.We went in!we were like V.I.P's BEB!There's oredi alot of ppl in front stage.So we stand like in the middle.Soon the rest came in.Soon ppl came in.It was realli packed!Even when there was sound testing, this really nerdy fans shouting & screaming..Stupid!den about to start ppl started pushing man!IT was so damn irritating!so I pushed ck
it was realli chaotic.But One incident realli made me gave up the front position.There was alot of pushing goin on till it gets realli rough till!!!!!
I LOST MY SLIPPER!
SHIT!!
I was like damN!!!
I tried finding it.Still no sign of it.SO!
wad zi hell!
I kept on enjoying the concert.Me & Beel went to to the bck.& we found the ful,hilmi,manda & zarifah.So we just enjoy at the bck.Hahaha!We jumped!Headbanged!Screamed!yada2!etc2!
Concert finish, we realli3 enjoyed it much.But!one problem...Still slipper not found.Nvm i thought.I can go home barre footed.
After Everyone's like outside oredi. I decided to check one last time.& I FOUND IT!! WOOHOOO!!!hahaha!
We went to simei..met ray..slack2 for a while..Ray tells about his Werk stories.yada2..den I went home wif ful.ahahha..
So today was tiring coz of the jumping,pushing,yada2..
Wild coz of the stupid fans..
Exhilarating!coz I went on a Hunt to find my slipper!
WOoooHOOO!!!

So now, I wanna go Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....So nites!

A Day Passed

2007-12-11T02:34:00.000+08:00

Like another day passed.
I went out to meet my Gf around early noon.We spent our happy time together.hehehe.At around 7+ I went to meet Adol & Mul at semei.
Adol's mummy asked to buy a mattress.So since we have no destination, we follow lor buy.Adol's mummy told him that the mattress is $22.I spotted a mattress.A 'Bugs Bunny' mattress so I told him that that was it.Feeling cool, he rejected it.But when he called mummy, that was the mattress his suppose to buy.HAHAHA!He bought it & he had to carry the big, long, pictures of Bugs Bunny & Tweety Bird.Haha!
Then after that we waited for ray ray boy to finish werk then we just sit around at the mrt railings.We talked about Multazam & his Gf.Yada2.Etc.Stupid Stuffs.A lot ah.Then we go home.cause Mully boy was to jealous.haha! Poor guy.I reach home then online then this laa.& now i wanna end my adventure for today here.

I thought everything was going on smoothly.But in the end, it all just turns sour.I'm sometimes confused with what you want.Sometimes u want this, sometimes u want the opposite of it.I get really frustrated u noe sometimes.
So now I do what I think is right.You can suspect me all you want to.As long as your happy with it.

The Lost Chapters

2007-12-10T02:11:00.001+08:00

Hey Hey Hey!
This is My Lame Blog!
I had a hard time figuring dis thing out..
but!
I made it!
Hip Hip!
HOORAY!
.....
nevermind...